Somebody to You

Chapter 12

The rest of my day consisted of complete chaos. After leaving my fathers study I was lead down to the kitchen to be met by a whole crew to help plan my wedding. The date has been set October 16th, four months from now. The color scheme is going to be gold and grey, the flowers will be white lilies, and the cake will be red velvet.

 None of these decisions are mine. I have no idea what a lily even looks like, I had to look it up. All I've done is nod while the my wedding planner, Kathrine Flake, is constantly talking. This woman is awful. She's super tall with beautiful brown hair that goes down too her waist, has super green eyes, and a very petite body. Her beauty intimidates the shit out of me. Looking at her makes me want to go wash my hair. I think what I find so awful about her is that she's so fucking perfect. I hate it. 

I'm sitting in the kitchen across from her as she rambles off about the seating arrangement. I can't focus on a thing she's saying because currently all of my attention is on the untouched salad sitting in front of her. I'm starving. It's nearly 7 in the evening and I don't know how much longer I can go without eating anything. I can feel my body turning against me as its starts to eat whatever meat is left on my bones. The lack of nutrition is quiet obvious from my stringy, gross hair, the hollowness I feel in my face, and the constant chill running over my body. I can't even keep myself warm. Nobody notices though.

I'm snapped from my daydream when I look up to see Xander and Kathrine looking at me like I have two heads. 

"Miss. Knight are you okay?" Kathrine asks in her perfect sing song voice.

I shake my head nodding "Of course what were you saying?"

Before she has the chance to continue my gaze wanders again to the food laying on the table. It looks so fucking good. Maybe my father wouldn't know if I went and had a quick snack right? I'm practically drooling when they get my attention again.

"Would you like it Miss?" Kathrine asks sliding the food in my direction. "I know you've had quite the busy day"

I snatch the food from the table, and I dig in immediately. I don't even taste the food, I just need something. Before I know it the entire plate in clean within five minutes. I feel my body hum alive as the food goes through my body. I feel more awake than I have in days. It's then that I realize what I just did. Slowly I set the plate back on the table and look up to see Xander and Kathrine staring with shock written across their faces.

"I'm sorry that was very rude of me. I haven't eaten a thing all day with the wedding planning and all." I apologize feeling a blush creep up my face.

"It's fine Miss. Knight you should've said something earlier, and we could've taken a break." Kathrine says ready to move on. 

As Kathrine continues on with her plans it's not until then that I fully comprehend that Xander has been here the whole time. I look over to him, to find him already staring at me. I see suspicion in his eyes, he doesn't believe any what I've just told them. His eyes start to roam over my body as if he had never actually looked before.  I wonder if he sees what I see. When he finally makes his  way back to my face, I see fury light up inside of his eyes.  My eyes immediately dart to the floor, afraid of what I saw.

"If you would excuse me Mrs. Flake, but I must steal my fiancé for a few minutes. We have a private matter to discuss." Xander says with his gaze never leaving my body.

Before I have the chance to protest, Xander is dragging me out of the kitchen and into the hallway. He turns pushing me up against the wall with his hands on either side of my head. His face is so close I can see the pupils of his eyes dilate with anger, and feel his minty breath wash over my face. I'm once again in position were I should feel fear run up my spine, but instead I just  feel excitement being so close to him. Our bodies are a breath away from touching. His body heat envelopes me, making me shiver with pleasure. 

"When was the last time you ate." he growls in my face. 

"T-his m-morning." I stutter back in response

"Bullshit" he says with surprisingly calm voice.

He's trying to keep control. I feel his body vibrating in anger, and his eyes dilate to the point they almost look black. 

"W-what?" 

"Look at you." he says as his eyes gaze down at my body. "You look like shit, like you haven't eaten in weeks."

"I d-don't know what you're t-talking about." I stutter faking innocence.

"You think this is attractive?" he says with a dark laugh. "You think that doing this to yourself will make people like you more?"

It feels like a bucket of cold water was just thrown over my body. He thinks that I did this to myself. I starve myself on purpose. Is the world really so blind? I look at Xander at a complete loss for words. As we stood and stared at each other I saw something slowly melt. His body relaxed around my body, and he looked at me with pity in his eyes. I was going to puke.

"Why Ali." he whispered never breaking eye compact with.

I push Xander away from me with all the strength I have. Surprise masks his face as I turn to run away from him. I run as fast as I can up the stairs and towards my room. I feel tears start to build up in my eyes.When I crash my way into my room I go straight to the bathroom, puking up all the contents I had eaten earlier. My body once again feels empty as I cradle myself on my bathroom floor and cry myself to sleep. 

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Okay sooo I know I have like one reader, but I would still love any opinions from anyone willing to give me one. Should I make the chapters longer? Am I going too fast? Are the details weird? Anything at all would be great:) Please vote and comment!!