two ghosts ; larry

today

louis and i broke up today.

it's not him, it's not me. it's just that we could no longer feel our little connect that brought us together.

when louis use to tell me that he loves me, it would make my whole day. but i guess i wouldn't know if it'd still make my day, louis no longer tells me that he loved me.

we were sitting on our couch, it was very soft, louis and i picked it out together. louis liked the colour and i liked how soft it is, we both liked the fact that it was a perfect couch where we could just cuddle all day.

now thinking about it, we haven't cuddled in a while.

i went to speak first, but louis spoke at the same time as me. we were so similar, but so different. i smiled and told him to speak first.

"i don't know if this is still the same." louis couldn't look at me in the eyes.

i hate the fact that there's nothing i can do to save our relationship, because i felt that way too.

so then, louis and i broke up.

5 years of relationship. thrown away.

i didn't cry, neither did louis.

louis' looking for a new place to stay, but i told him that he could still stay with me if he wanted to. is that a bad decision? i don't know. all i know is that i still wanted to see louis every day.

i stood up and walked to my room, louis followed me. we both carried some of louis' belongings into the other bedroom. i helped him set up the bed, louis was never good at that.

"thank you, harry." louis' voice was soft as always, it made my heart tingle, "goodnight."

"goodnight, louis." i replied as i close the bedroom door behind me.

when i laid down in my bed, i felt empty and alone.

i've never felt like this before.

i wonder if louis feels the same too.

$

short sad larry story :)

- j