two ghosts ; larry

he called me love

i couldn't tell you how many time louis has called me love throughout the 5 years. he liked calling me love. i liked it too.

i called him lou. he'd usually laugh, then reply to me. so i think he liked me calling him that. we had many nicknames for each other.

louis called me haz, hazza and love.

i called him lou, lou bear and sweetie.

the first time he called me love, i was so happy i didn't sleep until 3 in the morning. when i met his mother, i could tell it was a habit in the family. his mum called me love too.

louis was a very kind person. a little too kind. which is one of the reasons why i stayed even though i wasn't feeling anything.

between us, my love for louis grew into reliability. i rely on louis tomlinson. i know that makes me sound horrible, but it's the truth. towards the end, it wasn't love that made me want to stay.

but at one point, we were so in love. i would die for louis tomlinson.

i don't really know what happened.

the day we decided to move in together was the day my mum screamed at me. she called me a disgrace and told me to never come back. i wouldn't have made it through that if louis wasn't next to me, holding my hand.

my mum and i haven't spoke in 4 years.

louis told me that everything would be okay, because his family's mine too. louis' mum always checks on me, to make sure i was doing okay. we always went over to his house for dinners, then we'd go back to our little apartment to watch movies and cuddled together.

louis' mum still checks up on me once in a while now, even though louis and i aren't together anymore.

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i love harry styles sm

- j