two ghosts ; larry

photo album

for my 22nd birthday, louis got me a photo album. with photos of us throughout the years. some of them i don't even remember been taken.

i haven't looked in that for a long time now. i'm scared that all those happy memories will come back to me and knowing that i'll never be able to experience them again. at least not with louis.

liam took most of the photos, i never really looked at them properly. while i'm smiling, the way louis looked at me makes my heart melt.

i think i made a big mistake of letting him go.

it's been 3 months since we broke up now, i'm still not used to living here by myself. sleepless nights are a common thing now, all i could think about is that brunette hair boy. i hate myself for that.

i feel so stupid, knowing louis probably isn't thinking about me.

liam heard about us breaking up from louis. he came over straight away and asked why i didn't tell him. i could only cry.

i admitted to liam that i still loved louis. i don't understand why i was okay the moment it happened. all of this didn't really hit me until a week after we broke up.

liam spent the night comforting me, he stayed with me until i fell asleep, well he thought i was asleep anyways. i heard his call with louis in my living room.

"no louis, he's doing terrible." i heard liam say.

i wanted to go out there and tell louis who's on the other side of the phone that liam was lying and that i'm doing fine. but that lie was so big i could never get myself to say it out loud. i couldn't even get myself to leave my room.

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harry bby

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