two ghosts ; larry

my mother

my mother was never the kindest.

i never had the courage to even tell her that i was gay. i dated louis for a year and she didn't know.

when louis and i decided that we were going to move in together was right before my 19th birthday. i walked in my house with louis.

when my mother landed her sight on louis and i, she completely lost it. i didn't care. i wanted her to know that i loved louis and that i was going to spend the rest of my life with him.

she kicked me out. i told her it didn't matter because we already found a place we can call our own. if louis wasn't squeezing my hand while my mother yelled, i probably would've cried and started apologising, begging her to forgive me.

louis gives me the courage i never knew i had.

i thought i'd be okay on my own, but i only just realised how wrong i was to even think that.

i haven't had the motivation to cook or to clean the house. i can barely make it to work and come back home due to the lack of sleep.

but there's one thing, my bed is always perfectly made.

what if one day louis decides to come back? i don't want him to see a messy bed.

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- j