Serendipity - a fortunate happenstance |✔

Chapter 28

His black Audi was parked right on the spot in front of the hospital, between a blue sedan and an empty spot. "I asked Dad to bring the car over. He got here yesterday." He said it before I even ask, he still seemed distant.

Only I knew, his dad already visited me. I promised him that I wouldn't tell Jay about it. So I just nodded. He dropped my bag in the back seat and went around to open the door for me. I was few paces behind him wondering how big of a menace I have become in his mind. He stopped at the passenger's door. His hand was hesitating on the door handle. Then he curled it into a fist in a second, "uurrrgg" he groaned painfully and stamped his foot on the tire so hard, repeatedly.

"Jay!" I shrieked, stopping him before he blew a fist through the shutters as well. He was trembling with rage. I've never seen him like this before. "Jayden....Jay... look at me Jay." I put my palms on either side of his face and tried to make him look at me. "Listen to me Jay... Please" His eyes were shut tightly.

As his eyes opened to mine slowly, I saw for the first time his eyes were welled with tears. They were gleaming in blood red. It wasn't filled with anger...but with pain. Each tear streaming down from his cheeks ripped my heart out. "No...No... Jay, talk to me." It wasn't only him that was shaking, I was too.

If I could only unsaid everything that's been said few minutes ago and asked him to leave me for good, I wouldn't ask for anything more. This boy right here, I fell in love with, the one I continued to love even through heartaches, betrayal and everything that supposed to lessen what I felt for him; I couldn't see him crying.

"Listen Jay, I lived through this for like a long time now. It won't be that bad, trust me. I'll rest myself, a year or two if that's what it take. It's not your fault. Please"

In an instance he cupped my face in his trembling hands "I'm sorry. I am pathetic enough to ask for your forgiveness." affliction was all I could hear in his perfect voice.

"I forgive you. Jay I've never hated you, not for a second. In fact it wasn't-"

"Don't....just don't say that it wasn't my fault." His face was hard as he cut me off. "God.... I hate her" he walked away from me and stopped, leaning on to the bonnet of the car.

"Hate who?" I reached him taking his hand in mine, entangling my fingers in his.

"I hate myself more than anything...I should have died that day...I wish I have" resentfulness in his words was heartbreaking.

I couldn't take it anymore. "Jay...please. Don't say things like that." I muttered through my own broken sobs.

He pulled me into his chest at once and holding me tight there. His head was resting upon my head, cradling me in both of his arms. I could hear his heart, beating so fast. His quivering lips touched my forehead as he inhaled. I kissed his fingertips, still tangled with mine. In that very moment time stood still, time we never seemed to have for ourselves. I don't know how long we were there, holding each other for the first time like that. Sun was setting in the western sky throwing beautiful shades of colors in the sky. Even if the night falls in less than few hours I wasn't tired in his arms. I didn't want him to let go.

"It's getting cold." He whispered in my ear. "Get in." he held the door for me. He got in the driver's seat. "Do you feel okay to ride this...I mean-" his voice was shaken.

Though I felt uncomfortable in the very own vehicle I almost died, he already had enough, I didn't want to make it any worse "No...I'm fine." I lied. He nodded and pulled away. He wasn't driving in his usual speed, it was very low. He might have noticed that I was lying after all. He stopped the vehicle in front of my house without pulling it in to the drive way, which meant he didn't intend to wait any longer.