Unexpected love [Petekao Fanfic] ON HOLD

A dreadful Tuesday

WARNING!
Bullying, depression and suicide will be mentioned throughout this chapter.

Kao's point of view

As I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock I lazily got out of bed and went to the bathroom. As I was brushing my teeth I recalled having a strange dream...or was it a nightmare,I'm not sure. Ugh my head.

Flashback
"Murderer, murderer, murderer"
[...]As I was crying I felt someone hug me. [...]"My name.."

'Oh yeah, I had a nightmare. Though I still have no idea whose voice that was. I wonder who it could be. It's a man that's for sure, but other than that I have no clue who it could be.'

I finished getting ready and went downstairs to have breakfast. It was normal as always. I thought about telling my mom about the nightmare but I decided not to mention it. When I finished eating I grabed my bag and went to the uni earlier than usually. I was still a little bit struck by everything that happened so I decided to grab some chocolate milk. That always cheered me up and got me in a slightly better mood, and it did the trick. I drank it before coming to the uni and I went to my friends. As I came there they immediately started bombarding me with questions as to why I wasn't there on Monday. My mood immediately changed from 'I'm feeling fine' to 'I'm so sad I just want to die' because I remembered my cousin, the letter and the nightmare. "Uh...I..." I started speaking but the words just wouldn't form, so I tried again and quickly got out the words "Ihadtodosomefamilyrelatedstuff!" My friends wanted to speak with me more and ask me some questions but they didn't get the chance because I already ran off to hide somewhere. I didn't feel like talking to them now, maybe i'll calm down and talk to them later, hopefully they'll forget about this. So I headed to the classroom, nobody would be there jet because we still had some time before our classes start. I reached for my bag and grabed something that always helped me to calm down. It was a hearshaped necklace. People would usually think it's wierd for a man to have something like this, but it was a gift. A special one. My cousin gave it to me when I was young, it will bring me 'luck' he said and I always felt like that was true.It was also special to me because my cousin made it for me, it was a stone heart that he made. But he didn't make it perfectly smooth, no, he just shaped it into a hear, but he left it looking like a stone. I always thought that was a nice detail. 

(This is what the necklace looks like)

I always bring it with me wherever I go. It's as if it had some magic that would help me calm down, and it was my favorite thing in the world. But some kids used to make fun of me when I was little because 'it's too girly for a boy to have a heart shaped necklace'. I often got bullied because of that so I started hiding it from people, and I stoped wearing it around my neck. I was always afraid people would keep making fun of me because of it, so I always hid it in my bag or in my pocket. The only people that would be able to see the necklace would be my mom, sister, aunt and my cousin P. But the bullying was never gone. People always made fun of me and said I was girly or a sissy. They would call me names like: gay boy, wierdo, fagot, nerd, loser, little bitch and a lot of other names so I never felt that confident. Because of the bullying I barely had any friends. I was lucky enough to have Rayn as a friend with how everyone treated me. But it wasn't always that bad, I always had my best friend suporting me and that's something that made me happy. He was the only person besides my family that liked me and knew me, that's why I don't tell people a lot about me if I don't know them good enough. I once made the mistake of opening up to someone that I didn't know much about. It was in 6th grade. The boy seemed realy nice and had a lot of friends. He was being nice to me and I told him some of my secrets because he said he'd tell me his and he swore to never tell anyone my secrets if I don't say his. It turned out he was lying. Everything he said was a lie. His secrets, his promises, his friendship.