Something about Jeff,Ben and us two

part 42

Lily's POV:
I slowly went back down the ladder, away from my now slightly insane best friend, I walked into our old room, Lj's blood was still a massive red stain on the carpet, I sat with my back against the door I hugged my knees close to my chest and I could hear the three of them in the hallway talking about me, that's when everything stopped, I realized that I had lost Mollie to insanity, I don't know if Ben still loves me, Jeff probably doesn't give a f*ck about me he just acts like he does so Mollie likes him, without realizing it I had started screaming, I was holding my head as if I was in agony and everyone was trying to open the door "lily! Open the door! What's happening!?" They were screaming my name, I stopped screaming and my hands gripped the door the handle I used it to gain balance and get up, I kept the door locked, I looked through the draws and found the knife again, I raised it and was about to stab myself when I heard something behind me, I went to turn around and fell, the knife landed in my lower abdomen, I screamed and everything started turning black, I heard people around me, but I didn't understand them, they were just noises...