fallen♡♡joshler (SMUT)

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Josh cuddled into his pillow harder, cuddling up with his blanket.

he let his tears fall, leaving a large wet spot on his pillow.

he was at his house in bed on a thursday night around 11 pm.

tonight was just one of those nights.

Josh hated how he looked. he hated his body and hair and everything about himself. (me)

it hit him hard too. he had a good day at school, nothing bad happened. then after his shower he was just looking at himself in the mirror and it went downhill from there.

he shakily picked up his phone and went to Tyler's number, typing in the space.

he deleted the text, not knowing if he should text Tyler. he didnt know if tyler even cared. he didnt want to bother him. he didnt want him to think he was annoying. God he probably was tired of him. he probably didnt even love Josh.

after many many minutes of him arguing with himself, he finally decided to call him. Tyler answered after about four rings.

"hey Joshua. whatcha doin baby?" Tyler's tired, raspy voice came through the phone. Josh knew he had woken him up, mentally cursing at himself for it.

"n-nothing. just cant s-sleep. needed to hear your v-voice." Josh stuttered through the phone, holding back his tears. even hearing Tyler's voice made him feel better.

"are you okay?" Tyler asked, worry filling his voice.

"I n-need you t-ty." Josh cried, losing it and breaking down.

"shit, I'll be there as fast as I can Joshua. I love you." Tyler said, immediately hanging up the phone after.

Josh dropped his phone on the bed, covering himself completely with the blankets. he was shaking and his lip was quivering. he just couldnt stop thinking.

after around 10 minutes later he heard a quiet knock on the door, poking his head out from under the blankets and seeing Tyler walk in. he was wearing his army green and plaid pajama pants and a long sleeve black and white Adidas shirt and some Nike socks and slides. he had his backpack for school and another smaller bag filled with random things and his phone and charger was in his hand also. his hair was all sorts of messy and his eyes were tired.

"baby, hey." Tyler softly said, setting his backpack down. he walked over to the bed, seeing Josh's face and frowning.

josh cried harder now, Tyler setting the bag on the floor next to the bed. he plugged his phone up, lifting the blankets up and sliding under next to Josh.

Josh immediately turned over and clinged on to Tyler, rolling on top of him. he wrapped his arms and legs around him tight, Tyler wrapping his arms around him while he sobbed into his shoulder.

"shhhhh you're okay Joshua. everything's okay now. I'm here. im with you. you're gonna be okay." Tyler softly said, scratching up and down joshs back.

Josh cried hard, Tyler just soothing him by rubbing his back and quietly talking to him.

"what's wrong?" he asked after Josh had calmed a bit and could actually form words.

"i-im okay now." Josh whimpered, Tyler frowning.

"Joshua tell me what's wrong." Tyler said.

"I-I dont wanna." he said, feeling that Tyler will judge him or get annoyed.

"you can tell me everything, okay? I care what it is." Tyler said, Josh sniffling.

"I just,, i-i dont know why you like me. im not really attractive. and my body is ugly and gross. I feel like you're just wasting your time on me. why are you still with me?" Josh asked, Tyler's heart breaking.