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Btw I'm referencing reader as around 4'11 (lol me) so George looks and feels tall. Also thank you for 1k! I have a question, if you're enjoying this book so far, why do you like it and what're your favourite bits so far?
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George and I kept our relationship a secret from YouTube for the first 3 months, all they knew is that George had a girlfriend after he and Josh 'played' Fortnite. I didn't say anything.

George was everything to me. He lifted my spirits, hyped me up, comforted me and because of him, my drinking problem decreased dramatically. I was healthier and I had put on weight, but it was a healthy amount, making me 8 stone - what I should be at for my height. In other words, I was eating proper meals three times a day, going to the gym three times a week and uploading videos every three days. However, I still wasn't earning enough money to pay off the irrelevant bills left behind, I debated a part time job but felt like it would clash with my routine, causing me to meltdown again. I just waited to get the eviction warning.

Anyway, do you know what heartbreak feels like? Well, I've got a pretty good idea now. I thought I could only have it shattered once. But no, it was torn to pieces four times.
Which meant i continued to drink until I was numb. Yay!
As a bonus, I realised I wish I'd never met some people, it's funny how without those people things would end differently, innit?

George and I sat on the sofa in his flat, playing Mario Kart on the Wii. I was winning obviously but George wasn't bad. There was a lot of cheating such as distracting one another, blocking views and even turning controllers off. There was a lot of moving too, especially sitting on each other, for some reason thinking the game would move with our controllers: which it didn't.

"Y/n, you're really grinding my gears. Stop cheating!" He jokingly grit his teeth while his thumbs abused the buttons.

"I'm cheating? You're the one sat on me!" I exclaimed, trying to see from behind his body. As my character crossed the final finish line, George let out a groan and flopped onto his back, off my lap.

"Can't believe you cheated." He sighed, in fake disappointment. I giggled and straddled him.

"Look George, you're really tatering my tots. You cheated." I fake growled. The fake anger didn't last long because we both burst out laugh. I meant over and gave him a peck on the lips, which he melted into.

"You're so cute." He pulled me into a bear hug, wrapping his legs round my body and planting kisses over my face. I giggled, again, trying to escape his grasp.

Time passed and before I knew it, I was getting ready to go clubbing. Putting together a bomb outfit and doing my hair took around 10-15 minutes since I was organised. Didn't want to look slaggy but didn't want to look goody was my goal. George wore a button up, white shirt which he tucked into his black jeans. The shirt hugged his figure perfectly, showing the right amount of muscle. Considering he didn't go outside much, he did go to the gym to keep his figure in shape - his main reason being that it felt good and he didn't want to be the fat friend. He gave me a sweet smile as he exited his room and entering the living area through the hallway. I slipped my shoes on as he did so.

We didn't attend the club alone, with us came Alex, James and Blond Beth.  I wasn't use to the atmosphere at all: hot, loud, crowded. Yeah, I'd been clubbing before but I hadn't been since the funeral. I mainly clung onto George though. Though, the others thought it would be a good idea to leave myself and James to our own devices, meaning we sat at the bar, drink after drink after drink. Neither of us got drunk, probably due to immunity but he claimed he never got drunk so before we knew it, we were doing shots. What was even worse (but not really), Alex had found his way over to us, meaning he indeed got drunk very fast. I couldn't help but feel slightly worried or even cautious being away from George considering he was drunk and left with a girl. Either way, I decided to have some faith in them both and continue to sing, drink and dance with James and Alex.

I wish I'd never had faith, I screwed myself over. After dancing with the lads,  James took Alex to the bathroom where he could throw his guts up. I weaved my way through the crowds of sweaty people, slapping hands away and ignoring cat-calls. I really wish I'd taken longer or stopped because after eventually slipping out to find a seating area, my stomach dropped as well as my drink, the can barely hearable but the liquid crawling. I felt my eyes widened slightly, drying out due the lack of blinking. My  boy was locking lips with his friend, the Beth that's blond. I could've been worse, it could've been Bastard Beth but still, my heart still stopped and cried. I didn't move one bit, quite frankly I was more than happy to stand and stare - purely to make them uncomfortable. It worked too, they pulled away and eyes fell upon me. I gave both of them a disappointed but not surprised look, a sigh and an eye-avert. And I walked away, the water tanks within me re-filling for the first time in a while. I felt weird. I didn't feel numb anymore. I was sad. Disappointed and foolish to think that something wouldn't happen like this so I hadn't prepared myself. I didn't stick around either, I called an Uber and immediately went back to my apartment. 

I remember throwing myself into the apartment and making my way to the kitchen after slipping my shoes off. I forcefully opened the fridge to crab a can of Stella and took large gulps, stepping back and tripping over my foot, causing me to fall and crash back into the counter and cabinets.  I didn't stand up, I remained slumped against the cabinets with beer in my palm as tears welled up in my eyes. Next door, Mr Brightside played, which reminded me that it was only a kiss and that it was all in my head. I did take a cab home. The situation oddly related to the song - like it was destiny.  Either way it didn't really matter because after the song ended, I felt numb again and I assume I passed out, because I don't remember anything past that.