Maybe Not ( a Brendon Urie Fan Fiction) *SEQUEL TO CRAZY OR IN LOVE*

Chapter 9

~ Brendon's POV ~

My brain stopped working as I heard the awful word. Rape. Why would anyone in this world ever try to do that to someone.

Spencer talked to Gabby, but I couldn't hear a word they were saying. This was my fault. It was still me, except my mind wasn't there. It was still my body. I could have hurt her.

I belonged in the asylum. I was a threat to my family and I need to be as far away as possible from them.

I felt the hit tears stream down my face as the thoughts flooded my mind. The feeling of her soft hand gently touch the side of my face made the any thought of being calm again, leave my mind.

Her voice was there, but distant and it was muffled as if there was a wall between us. My vision was blurred as an oxygen mask was put around my face. I hadn't noticed how difficult it had become to breathe.

I regained my breathe, but the tears didn't stop. I knew they wouldn't. At least not for a while. I also knew I would not be switching personalities anytime soon.

That's something that happened when I was at My best state of mind. When I was happy and I felt love. That's when he wanted to take me down and make me feel pain. I was feeling pain now and that means he is watching happily.

Her hand went through my hair in the most comforting way and her voice was calming. I reached my hand out hesitantly and immediately felt her small hand grasp mine.

Her touch made all the bad thoughts go away for a few seconds, but every second I felt it was like I was in heaven. I opened my eyes and I could see the worry that spread across her face.

I smiled lightly at my wife. Letting her know she didn't have to worry about me. Her flawless face relaxed and her beautiful brown eyes immediately softened. A small smile appeared on her face as she saw mine.

"Relax, beautiful. I'm so sorry about everything that has happened today. You deserve so much better and you should never have to go through anything like that." I said as a small tear slipped from her eye. She shook her head lightly and brought my hand up to her lips, where she proceeded to place a small and gentle kiss to the back of it.

"Don't be sorry. It wasn't you. You would never do anything like that and that's why I love you. I don't deserve better because you are everything I need. We are going get you help and we are going to put all this in the past." She said with confidence lacing her voice. I smiled and nodded. She was everything I needed. Hearing her say that about me made my heart melt inside of my chest.

"I love you." I said as I felt the ambulance come to a sudden stop. She kissed my forehead and looked at me nervously, knowing that I wasn't ready to be back here.

"I love you more than anything." She said as the doors were thrown open. I was restrained to the bed once again and I was wheeled inside the asylum.

It had changed. The white walls that used to be blinding were now a dull gray. The floor that used to be wood were now a more smooth white tile. The doors to the patient's rooms no longer had windows and they were now just white metal doors.

It was sad to look at. I forgot how we are treated like caged animals. Passing by every room and hearing the screams and the yelling of different people as they became even more crazy was more than a reminder.

"Right there." I heard Spencer tell the doctors that had taken me to the front of a room. The room was empty from what I could see and that meant I was there to fill it.

They took me in and untied me from the bed. I immediately jumped off and looked around the room. A small bed was placed in the corner of the room with a single pillow and blanket. There was also a neatly folded pair of light blue scrubs that I'm guessing all the patients wore now. The walls were the same dull gray and the floor was the same smooth white tile.

I sighed and sat on the bed as the doctors all left. That left Gabby, Spencer, and I alone in the room.

"What now?" I whispered to them as I looked down at the floor. Gabby sat next to me and put her hand on my thigh reassuringly.

"Now you get dressed and you follow the schedule that will become your daily schedule, until you leave." I nodded slowly and turned my head to look at the pile of clothes that sat beside me.

"When you're done Gabby will make sure you know your schedule and she will explain everything further." He said stepping toward the door. I nodded once again and he took that as his sign to leave. I stripped from my clothes and put on the new ones that I was given. They would be comfortable if I wasn't in this situation.

"Brendon, are you ready?" Gabby asked while holding her hand out to me. I grabbed it and squeezed it lightly.

"No, but let's get it over with." So that's what we did. Gabby went over what I would be doing and she explained how she would give me my new medicine like before and she would now come get me whenever it was time for something on my schedule.

I wanted it to be over with already. It sounded like torture, but I was lucky enough to have my wife here with me everyday.

Gabby's phone buzzes in her pocket and she looked at it with an uneasy look. She listened and nodded slowly giving me a sorrowful look every now and then. She finally hung up and sighed heavily.

"I have to go, but I will be back first thing in the morning." She said sadly. I nodded and messed with my fingers slightly.

"Before you go. What are you going to tell Lily?" I asked. She thought about it for a second before shrugging slightly.

"The truth, but in a way that she will understand." I nodded as she came over and kissed me.

"I love you Brendon. Get some rest." She said moving toward the door.

"I love you too." I said before she walked out. I sighed and laud back onto the bed. I could try to get rest, but I knew I would be up all night.