Maybe Not ( a Brendon Urie Fan Fiction) *SEQUEL TO CRAZY OR IN LOVE*

Chapter 12

~ Brendon's POV ~

The first test came quicker than expected. I, Of course, wasn't aware it was a test so I completely lost it.

The first test was more intense then I would have thought. The more I think about it, the more I realize how messed up it is.

I was waiting for Gabby to come in and give me my medicine, but she never came. They brought in a different nurses she didn't say anything no matter how many questions I asked her.

They left me confused and weak. I wasn't sure if what had happened to my wife or why no one would answer my questions.

It wasn't until hours later that someone knocked on my door. I immediately Stood up on my feet hoping to see Gabby standing there with a smile and an explanation for this morning, but I was met with Spencer. He looked pressured and that should have been my first clue that something was not right.

Looking back, his pained expressions were more than fake. He could try to act like he was upset, but he could never actually pull it off. Since I was caught up in the moment, I couldn't see through his act and they set it up so that it would be that way.

"Brendon. I have to tell you something." He said as I felt my heart ache. So many scenarios went through my head of everything he could have possibly told me. The only thing that stayed the same was that Gabby was not okay.

I sat on the bed and I felt my anxiety rise. The uneasy feeling in my stomach becoming more uncomfortable. The terrible thoughts rushing through my head as I became dizzy.

"Gabby and Lily were in a car accident this morning while Gabby was taking Lily to her dads house." My vision blurred as the tears came to my eyes. They didn't fall, at least not yet. My thoughts stopped and I didn't know what I was feeling. Probably shock. His words felt like knives cutting through my heart and I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do.

"Neither Of them made it out of the crash alive." There it was. My tears rushed down my face as I let out loud sobs. The one thing that I knew would ruin my life. The one thing I knew would end me. The one thing I knew would push me over the edge of insanity.

My heart pounded in my chest as I felt myself struggling to breathe. I tried to stand and get out of this small room that was suffocating me, but my knees were weak as I fell to the floor.

It felt like my body was giving out. Like all my oxygen was leaving my body with each breathe I took. Like if I moved my body would collapse into a pile of nothing.

I lied on my back and sobbed. I screamed and cried more than I had ever in my life. My wife and my daughter were dead. They were gone forever.  The thoughts were so consuming that I couldn't even feel myself gasping for air.

I didn't even notice the multiple nurses coming in as the put an oxygen mask on me and put me on a gurney. As they took me out of my room, I screamed at the top of my lungs. I screamed Gabby and Lily's names as they took me to isolation.

They put me in the white room to calm me down, but it only did the opposite. I punched the walls with all my strength as I cried.

I eventually gave up and slid down the wall as my legs gave out beneath me. I never stopped crying until the door opened. I looked over and saw Gabby. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying, but she was completely fine.

I immediately ran to her and wrapped her in the tightest hug I could. She put her head in the crook of my neck as she cried softly. I felt myself becoming more relaxed and relieved as I knew she was safe and in my arms. Everything was alright.

"Why?" I asked barely above a whisper. Gabby pulled away from me and I wiped the tears that came from her eyes.

"It was your first test. I asked them not to do it. Seeing you go through that was one of the hardest things I have ever had to watch." She said as more tears came rushing down.

"What about Lily?" I asked as I rubbed her arm to try and calm her down.

"She's with my dad, but they said as long as you don't have an episode in the next 24 hours, you can see her." I felt the smile form on my face at her words. I wrapped Gabby in another long hug as she calmed down.

She pulled away and I immediately kissed her passionately. I grabbed her waist and pulled her closer to me. I needed Gabby. She was my rock.

I pulled away and rested my forehead against hers. She smiled lightly and put her hands against my chest.

"I love you. I can't imagine my life without you or Lily. You are my world and if you aren't here then I don't have a life anymore." Gabby gave me a sad smile and kissed me.

"Brendon, I love you too. More than you know. I can't imagine my life without you either and I'm sorry that you are in this situation, but I'm glad that we are at least together." I smiled and nodded. She was right. At least we are together.

We were interrupted by Spencer walking in with a small smile on his face, but I had the exact opposite.

"What was that?" I yelled furiously. His smile faded and he dropped his clipboard to his side.

"That was a test Brendon. Remember, we are testing your emotions." I scoffed and shook my head as laughter consumed me.

"You told me that the only people I love in this world, were killed. Who does that?" I said as I looked back at Gabby.

"We did what we thought would prove your theory and so far you seem to be right." I relaxed and stood confused.

"Really?" Spencer nodded and I couldn't believe that was actually turning out to be right.

"You haven't shown any signs of switching, so yes right now that is the best guess that someone has made." I smiled lightly to myself.

Maybe we were on the right track.