-Chapter Title Credits:Don't Go by Bring Me The Horizon-
"Gee?'Frank whispered just in case Gerard had already fallen asleep.
They were in Franks room,cuddled up in the bed but Frank was wide awake.
"Hmm?"Gerard hummed,his eyes fluttering open.
Frank hesitated.
He had told Mikey earlier that there had been enough talking for tonight...
But he had so many questions swarming his head that he could not silence and it was preventing him from sleeping.
"Frankie?"Gerard prompted,squeezing Franks waist softly.
Frank sighed and automatically shuffled closer to him.
"Gee.....How long have you been hallucinating?"
Gerard froze for a second before sighing.
He knew Frank was going to ask that.
"It started again a week or so ago.I use to hallucinate before I met you which is how I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia."
Frank looked up at him to study his face.
"Why did they put you in a mental hospital then?"
Gerard shuddered at the thought of the hospital.
Frank noticed and reached up to play with his hair knowing it would calm him down instantly.
"Well...I had just done my drug test when my mom told me that she was giving you up for adoption.Naturally,I freaked out.I ended up basically stealing my moms car and speeding back to the house.But when I got there,you were already gone.I just...broke.So due to my mental break down AND the fact my test results came back showing I hadn't been taking my medication my mom had me locked away.It was horrible Frankie.The scariest thing is waking up after losing the person you love,strapped down to a hospital bed completely alone with needles stuck in your arm."
Frank winced sympathetically.
"The first month there was the worst.They basically shoved all these pills down my throat twice a day.I ended up in a padded cell for breaking a nurses nose,"
Franks eyes widened at this.
Gerard was a anti-violence person.
Gerard saw his look and quickly added,"She had a three inch needle she planned on stabbing me with."
Frank couldn't help the small laugh that escaped him that caused Gerard to smile.
Honeslt,if a nurse came near Frank with a three inch needle he would probably flip out to,Needlephobia or not.
They sat in silence for a moment before Gerard continued,
"Ray and Mikey finally got me out and I was provided with a apartment.Mikey made me get a job with his friend Ben and Bob at a cafe.I kinda just stay inside unless I have to go outside.Sometimes my friend Bert comes over,"FUCK.
Gerard hadn't meant to say that.
"He was my neighbor for a year then he moved but we still hang out on occasion."
Frank had a sudden sinking feeling.
He saw a look of guilt flash in Gerards eyes.
He was hiding something.
"What arn't you telling me Gee?"Frank whispered continuing to play with the dyed red strands.
"That is everything.I promise."
He couldn't tell Frankie about the drugs and alcohol.
He didn't want to see the disappointment that would fill his face.
Plus,he would stop using it now.
He had Frank,he didn't need all that anymore.
"Tell me about your side.How did you end up here?"Gerard changed the subject.
Frank sighed,he would find out what Gerard was hiding later.
"I was uh watching The Ring on tv when the basement door opened.This lady and two cops came down the stairs.I started panicking.The lady told me I was being put up for adoption and that I had to leave before you got home to 'make things easier on everybody'.Of course I fought like a motherfucker.I didn't hit the lady,but the cops were fair game.They tried to grab me and I went full fledge animal on them.Biting,punching,clawing,kicking.They ended up tasing me....twice.After that I couldn't move anymore.I blacked out actually.I woke up in solitary confinement.I stayed at a foster care place for like three months before Isobel and Alex adopted me and I moved to Baltimore.I was rebellious at first but it turns out they are nice people.Alex is like my brother now.Isobel got a job offer in New Jersey and well,here we are.We just got here today.
Frank left out the self harming.
The only way Frank had survived without Gerard was with a piece of metal digging into his skin,giving him relief.
Gerard didn't need to know that though.
Maybe once his fresh cuts on his wrist had scarred he would tell him.
Well,Frank mused darkly,Were both hiding something.
A comfortable silence hung in the air for a few minuets and Frank had thought Gerard had fallen asleep.
But he was startled when the silence was broken with a small sniffle and a broken voice whispering,"Please don't leave me."
Frank looked up at him frowning deeply.
"Never Gee,"He brushed the tears off of Gerards cheek with the pads of his thumbs.
"Im never going to lose you again.I promise.I love you."
-Sorry its short and probably sucked.It's hard to write without my glasses :p I can't believe this story already has 97 votes.YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING AWESOME I LOVE YOU.Oh Ps:I have a DeviantART so if you use DeviantART you should check out meh stuff :3-ChemicalSkeleton
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