-Chapter Title Credits:Sorry by Sleeping With Sirens-
The room was deadly silent as Frank and Gerard sat across from each other on the bed,the small box with Gerard's darkest secret inbetween them.
Thats ironic,Gerard mused darkly staring down at it.
His demons were inbetween him and Frank,physically and metaphorically.
Frank scooted closer,causing their knees to touch.
"Gerard,"
Gerard sighed hanging his head.
He knew he had to tell him everything but he didn't know where to start.
He had been doing better with his drug use,only using them every other day instead of five times a day like he use to.
It didn't seem like much,but to him it was the hardest thing in the world.
He WANTED to tell Frank.
He had been wanting to tell him about his problems for a while.
But not like this.
Not with having to see the distrust in his eyes because he felt like Gerard didn't want him to know.
"Hey,Gee,"A soft hand was placed on his cheek making him lift his face slightly.
"Talk to me,"Frank whispered and Gerard felt tears in his eyes.
He was such a fuck up.
How could he do this to Frank?
Frank sighed and Gerard knew he had finally figured out that Gerard wasn't worth all the stress.
Just like his mother had always said,he was a lost cause.
Frank surprised him however,by leaning forward and crashing their lips together.
It didn't last long,but it gave Gerard the strength to look up and finally tell Frank about his deadly secret addiction.
He told Frank everything.
Starting with how he met Bert at a bar and Bert had given him weed.
After that Gerard kept calling Bert,ordering more and more until he demanded something stronger,to get him higher to take away the pain in his chest.
Bert had refused at first,claiming Gerard didn't know what he was getting himself into but after hanging out with Gerard at a club one night and seeing the how broken he was Bert finally gave in.
Gerard told Frank about how he drowned himself in alcohol day after day,at work and at home.
"And then you were back and the pain was nothing but a small ache....but I-Im addicted Frankie and its MY fault.I did this to myself and now I can't stop,"Gerards voice broke and he hung his head.
It was his fault.
Gerard didn't want Franks pity because he didn't deserve it.
"You should leave,"Gerard cried before Frank could speak.
"What?"Frank asked shocked.
"You should leave.You need to leave Frank."Gerard whispered placing his face into his hands.
"W-hat?WHY?"Frank demanded hurt.
"Because you deserve better Frank!You need to go home to Isobel and Alex and have a fucking future!You need to go to college and find somebody who isn't all this trouble!WHO ISN'T A LOST CAUSE!"Gerard shouted.
Frank stared at the hysterical man before him.
"You a fucking idiot!"Frank shouted causing Gerard to flinch.
"DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT YOU.DON'T YOU DARE BELIEVE FOR ONE SECOND YOU ARE A LOST CAUSE.I BELIEVE IN YOU GERARD.I LOVE YOU,YOU FUCKING IDIOT!"
Frank was crying by this point too.
He had never shouted at Gerard before,but Gerard was being ridiculous now.
"Your worth all the trouble.You are my life Gerard,"Frank whispered making Gerard cry harder.
"Your going to get better.I promise.I will help you get better,But you can't keep secrets from me."
Gerard couldn't talk by this point so he simply nodded as he choked on the sobs leaving his throat.
Frank sighed and pulled Gerard into his arms.
"Im sorry,"Gerard whimpered into his neck as Frank rubbed his back.
"Were going to get through all of this.You'll get better.I promise."
Silence made a reappearance as they held onto each other.
"Theres something I should tell you,"Frank whispered after a good 5 minuets and Gerard had calmed down.
Gerard raised his head so he could look into Franks eyes.
"You drowned your pain with drugs and alcohol....I released mine through self harm."
Gerards eyes widened and slowly he reached out to grab one of Franks arms,rolling the sleeve up carefully.
Layers upon layers of scars stained the perfect skin and Gerard felt as if he was going to cry again.
"I havn't done it since I found out I was moving back here to Jersey..."Frank sighed heavily.
Gerard shook his head slightly before lowering his head slightly and bringing Franks arm to his lips,kissing every scar he could.
"We'll get better.I promise."Gerard said looking up into Franks eyes once again as he placed the final kiss on his wrist.
-Sorry this was kinda short.Iv got a decision to make.
1-Live with my aunt and uncle,go to a school i dont want to and will most likely be bullied but have a stable home and not have to worry about not running out of money for food or whatever
OR
2-live with my mom who makes my depression even worse,Go to a school I really want and have some friends at but have to sleep on a couch and worry about how im going to have money to eat every night.
Idk guys.School is important to me.I need help-ChemicalSkeleton
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