LILLYS POV
Me and Crawford laid around all day. We took a nap and when we woke up we only had 30 minutes to get to the airport and board. We WERNT going to make it but we were gonna try. Me and Crawford ran to the car and hurried to the air port. When we were there we went through security and to the terminal. The plane had just started rolling to to run way. Shit.
We asked the lady but there wasn't another flight till 1am. It's 9:20. Me and Crawford chilled and watched netflix on the floor waiting. I fell asleep in his shoulder and next thing I knew I was being picked up bridal style to my seat. I was awake but I didn't want to walk so i pretended to be asleep.
"What's going on?" I asked Crawford as he put the suitcases up.
"Were on our way to phoenix" he sat next to me.
"Oh."
I lifted the arm rest and snuggled into Crawford's chest. He put his head on mine and we fell asleep.
I was so tiered but I had to get up and get on a different plane. Once we were on the plane we were wide awake but tired so we just talked. Talked about us. He told me funny story's and I just listened. What I wouldn't give to have good family memories. When we finally arrived in Huston. We checked in. Oh yeah why does it take 30 minutes to check into a hotel? Once we were in we fell asleep.
*the next morning*
CRAWFORDS POV
I felt something wet I'm my ear.
"What the..." I rolled over and Taylor was standing over me.
"Hey cutie" he said in a creepy voice like on one of his vines.
"Go away." I shooed and wrapped my arm back around Lilly.
"Come on we have to leave" he said poking my back.
"Fine get out so I can wake her up" I said pointing to the door. The footsteps got quieter till I couldn't hear them.
I whispered in Lillys ear "time to wake up beautiful." She rubbed her eyes and got up and disappeared into the bathroom. I heard the shower run. I combed my hair and got dressed. When she walked out and she was in a teal Diamond co. Crop top with white high waisted shorts. Teal vans. She hooked her necklace behind her neck. I soon realized it was mine.
Once I had my shoes on we headed to Taylor's room. It was across from ours and he was sharing with Chris.
We all said hi and made small talk then headed to the lobby where everyone was waiting. People were vining and tweeting and trying to get people to come. We all piled into a black limo an headed to the venue.
When we arrived we played out what was happening and waited for people to show up. Everyone went to the front door because we wanted to meet some of our general admission fans we were surrounded I lost everyone so I ran back to the door where Lilly was and taylor. He had a bandana on but I guess a fan tore it off. He looked mad.
We went backstage and it got louder and louder as fans filled in. After we all preformed we took group selfies on stage and then got to our places to meet fans. All the VIP came into the room and started screaming. A couple fans asked if we could take a picture kissing but I found that weird. So I didn't. I kissed them on the Cheek.
We grabbed our things and headed to the air port. When we arrived in Dallas we went to our hotel and fell asleep. When we woke up it was like 7 am. We had to leave at 2. I walked to the bathroom and there were several key cards on the floor. With a note saying "just in case we lose ours." I picked them up and walked over to Lilly. We went into all the boys rooms and woke them up. Me and Lilly haven't done anything in a while and I wanted to be alone with her. So I started planning a date. After we woke everyone up they were pissed they all had super early flights and had just got back,
"Hey tonight, is you and me." I whispered in Lillys ear as we walked back to our room.
"Just friends though right?"
I didn't want that but I hope she'd like me how I like her one day. So I just smiled and said "yup"
I had to come up with a different idea.
LILLYS POV
I needed to get ready for the day because the boys would come in complaining that we woke them up. I took a shower and I heard the door open.
"Hey" Crawford said sitting on the toilet.
"Ummm hey." Silence "what's up?"
"We haven't spent much time together and you still haven't told me details. I don't wanna rush you, but I wanna know because well Lilly I really really do care." I didn't know how to respond so I turned the shower off and wrapped a towel around me.
"Crawford, let me get ready and I promise I will tell you."
"Okay" he walked out of the bathroom shutting the door. God bringing up old memories is making me want to bring back old habits. It's addicting like nicotine. I don't even have to have a reason why. I just had to. I promised him though.
Once I was finally done I took one last look in the mirror. I had my hair in a braid that went around and ended a little past my right shoulder. I had light make up. A leather braided headband. A spiral tie dye crop top. Light shorts. And a daisy belly button ring with white vans. Done.
I walked out and Chris was in there. He looked a little mad. Probably something stupid. He walked out the door slamming it shut.
"What's his problem?" I asked pointing to the door.
"Ahh nothing. Tell me." He begged
"Fine! What is one part of my horrible life you want to know?" I asked
"Whatever you wanna tell me."
"No you either tell me or nothing."
"Fine. Umm 8th grade, when you tried to.... You know." His face had gotten red but not like blushing like around his eyes.
"Okay." I crossed my legs and began. " it was a week before the day that my stepdad, you could say, died. My mom was a normally a mess. She was Extra bitchy and called me names. She called me fat, worthless, etc. that day while I was at school she painted worthless on my mirror. To remind me. But I cut every night before that. Carving worthless into my legs." I was surprisingly more calm then I thought I would be. "I grabbed my sleeping pills that I was prescribed because when I was depressed I had insomnia. There were about 25 left so I laid them all over my bed. All I remember thinking was everything would be better. I'd be loved." I felt warm tears forming in my eyes. "I took the blade out of my jewelry box and put it next to the pills. I grabbed my water bottle and quickly popped one in after the other. Once they were gone I put as much pressure as I could 4 times each on my wrists." A tear rolled down my cheek but I wiped it away. "Then my eyes drifted and I thought I was gone. Till I woke up in my room with my mom screaming at me asking why I wasted a 70$ bottle of pills. She didn't care that I tried to kill myself. I never got help. I stopped cutting a year ago. When I met Rachel."
"Lilly I had no idea" he said grabbing my hands. "I promise you'll never go through that again."
Promise was a word used loosely and never really kept.
"Old habits die hard, and sometime return." I told him while looking down.
"Lilly you haven't thought of..."
I didn't answer I just looked up with tears in my eyes. He didn't say anything he just gave my a big hug, and thank you brent for ruining the moment. Brent busted in the door I pulled away from Crawford and wiped my eyes.
"Hola amigos" he said glancing at each of us "bad timing?"
"Just a little bit." Crawford
"Sorry just wanted to tell you that were leaving in a bit to go eat... Do you wanna tag along or?"
"We'll be right there" I told him. Looking at Crawford. Brent exited the room shutting the door behind him. Before Crawford could say anything I hugged him.
After a few minutes of this I let go. I had to admit something. I had to tell him now.
