My Heart's Music

Chapter 11

We stopped when we got to the city of Trost. I stopped and just sat there on my motorcycle as the others came out of the bus, Mikasa brought me my bandages, Erwin says even tho many people haven't seen me yet with the band that I should still wear them for safe measure, I got off and took them as she handed me them, I wrapped them over my eyes.

We got the building we were staying at and went to our rooms while carrying our stuff, Levi and I were sharing again, I sighed and put my stuff next to the bed to the door. Levi doesn't like to be woken up unless it's me which is kind of well sweet I guess? Maybe a bit weird? I don't know. It was about 6 in the morning maybe, I didn't get much sleep last night, I looked through my bags, but I found that I didn't bring them "Damn it" I mumbled, I have this bad habit of smoking when I can't calm down my thoughts and start losing sleep. I just layed in bed and tried to get some sleep but 5 minutes later, Hange bursts into the room "Come on shorty!!" she yelled, I groaned and put pillow over my head "What the fuck do you want 4 eyes?" Levi replied quite harshly if I might say "Just come on we need you" she rushed and pushed him out the door. 'Ahhhh peace and quie-' my thought process got stopped when Mikasa and Armin walked into the room, I groaned under my pillow again "You okay Eren?" Mikasa asked "No, I didn't get much sleep and I want to rest!" I yelled through the pillow on my face "Want us to leave you alone?" Armin's voice came through "Please" I said with the pillow raised from my face. I saw Corporal laying on the bed next to my feet and Armin and Mikasa standing at the door before Armin spoke again "We'll leave you to rest" he said softly with a smile then he opened the door again "Be safe" Mikasa said and they both left leaving me alone in the room well not completely but it was peaceful.

I was wondering about the paper Levi hid again, I wanted to sleep but I couldn't with this on my mind. I got off the bed 'I know I shouldn't be snooping but I can't help and wonder' I thought, I found myself going through his bag that he hid the paper in carefully not to make it obvious someone went through his stuff. I found the paper, it looked a bit old, I looked at the neat writing which was definitely Levi's. The writings were lyrics to a song I read the lyrics, seeing it was a love song.

Does he still feel that way? Did something or someone bring the way he felt back? I put the paper back where I found it and went back onto my bed wondering about the song until I fell into a dreamless sleep.

//Time skip after he sleeps off brought to you by Mike's sniffin great nose//

I woke up after who knows how long, I sat up and yawned, that's when I noticed I had been covered. 'I don't remember covering myself with the blanket' I thought "Want some tea?" I heard a voice, I turned my head towards the silhouette, my eyes focused and it was Levi sitting at the table in the room with a book and a cup in front of him "S..Sure" it took me a moment to register what he said. He put his book down, got up and went to the little kitchen on the side, he took a cup out, poured some tea in it while he was doing that I wondered about the song again, he walked to my bed, he handed me the cup and I took it, he walked back to the table, sat down and continued reading his book while drinking his tea. I took a sip of the tea then looked at Levi again, I investigated his features for the who knows what time, his well constructed face, his strong jaw, his piercing silver eyes that can make you shiver with one look, his hair style and the way it fits his figure, his thin perfect eyebrows, my gaze fell to his lips and his sweet lips that I imagine can be soft, the way they curve into his smirks and slight smiles of amusement. I kept looking at him as my gaze went to his body, the way his button up softly goes on his well built body, his muscular arms, my gaze went lower to his thighs and his legs, slim yet you can see they're strong.

When my gaze went over him from bottom to top and stopped at the top I saw him looking at me, I blushed red and looked away. I quickly put the cup on the nightstand next to the bed, stood up, grabbed my guitar and ran out of the room with my keys in hand. I got outside and panted for air "Damn it, why did my stare linger that long?" I asked myself already knowing the answer. I caught my breath and ran a hand through my hair as I sighed and looked at the sky, I looked around and saw that no one was around me so I quickly walked as I put my guitar on my back then got on my motorcycle, I turned her on and drove not knowing I was being followed.

//Time skip an hour later brought to you by what's about to happen//

I stopped again when I got to a sort of big hill, I got off my motorcycle and pushed her up the hill where I lowered her to the ground. I sat down for a while and stared at the beautiful light blue sky with the clear clouds.

After about 20 minutes of staring at the sky my thoughts went to Levi's song again 'Is it for someone? Did he take it out again because he felt like that for someone he met? When did he write it? Why am I even thinking about it, he can love anyone he wants not that it would ever be me.' I thought. "Damn it" I said when I got up and stood while staring at the sky "Why can't I just tell him? Why am I such a flustered mess around him? Why is it so hard to say 'I like you more than a friend' to you Levi? Why?" I asked myself again knowing the answers. I ran my hand through my hand then grabbed the guitar off my back, tuned it and started strumming and singing.

(A/N he sings it with he/him not she/her)

I stopped, I felt like I would cry, I raised my guitar and went to smash it but stopped right before I did. I put it down "Damn it" I said as I pulled out the box of cigarettes that I bought on the way here, I got one out and put it in my mouth. I put the box back in my pocket, got my lighter out and lit it as I looked at the lighter, seeing my mother's name engraved in it. I slightly smiled from amusement then put it back in my pocket, I looked up as I grabbed the cigarette and puffed out the smoke, I sighed as I held it to the side of my body. "Why is it so hard?" I asked myself as I put the cigarette in my mouth again then puffed out the smoke again, I sighed "And this habit is not helping either" I said as I looked at the lit cigarette.

I sighed as I dropped the cigarette and put it out with my foot, I got my guitar back on my back then got my motorcycle up. I pushed it down the hill then got on it and drove back.

//Time skip after he gets there//

I got back in no time, I parked my motorcycle then sneaked into my room. I checked if Levi was inside, he isn't, that's good, I went inside and to my bags. I was putting my cigarettes and lighter in a bag hiding it but as I was putting the lighter in "Where were you?" Shit.

Levi's POV

"Where were you?" I asked as I got in the room after him, he was hiding his cigarette. I followed him so I knew where he was but I'm not gonna tell him that. I stopped him when he was putting his lighter away, he jumped as he turned to me, his hands almost dropping the lighter but he caught "Uh...n-n-nothing" he stuttered while his cheeks were turning pink. He really does get flustered around me "What's that?" I asked already knowing "Uhhh..." he put it behind his back "Nothing" he said, I walked to him and stood in front of him. I put my hand out for him to give it to me, he hesitated for a moment before giving me the lighter, I took it and looked at it seeing 'Carla Yeager' engraved in it, must be his mother's name. I looked back at him to see him staring at me, I raised an eyebrow questioning him, he quickly turned red and looked to the floor, I stared at him for a moment, I really did fall for this brat. I crouched down and handed him his lighter before the smell of cigarette smoke hit me because he smoked one earlier, I should know what it smells like, I smoke too, he grabbed the lighter but I didn't let go. I looked at his beautiful ocean green-blue eyes that also had small gold flakes in them "Have you been smoking?" I asked, he looked away probably feeling ashamed of himself "It's fine, I smoke too but go brush your teeth, your breath smells like cigarette smoke" I said as I stood. He looked up at me with slight amazement as he nodded slowly, he put the lighter in his bag then went to the bathroom but not before "Please don't tell anyone" he requested as he looked at me again, I said "I won't" he looked away slightly with a small smile "Thank you" he said his voice softer and I just nodded. He went inside the bathroom and I layed on my bed, I thought about the brat until I heard the door to the bathroom open to which I took my book and read again.