My Heart's Music

Impossible. Chapter 14

Eren's POV

It's been 2 days since our first practice, my emotions were still a mess and by the looks of it Levi had something bothering him as well. Our routine still needs work and both of us are just, well we're barely even talking. Probably because of me, I only talk to him if needed and quite frankly when I look at him out of the corner of my eye he looks annoyed with my short answers.

Right now I was with Mikasa and Armin in their hotel room, we were eating and talking but I was quiet and I was picking at my food, both of them noticed my unhappy behavior. "Eren?" I heard Armin call me "Hm?" I hummed as a response "You okay Eren?" Mikasa asked "Yeah" I said simply, they exchanged looks then looked at me again. I put my fork down and stood up "I'm gonna go to the dance studio" I said and walked out.

I got to the dance studio and got to the dance room without a problem, I stretched out. I put my phone on the floor with my music playing a random playlist. I just danced to it and I dance some of my emotions away. I was trying to get my head wrapped up to my situation again, so I kissed Levi, um...then cried about it, then left him to wake up in the hotel room on his own and avoided him until 2 days ago when we practiced together, barely said a word to each other, I was cold towards him when I actually didn't want to be. I sighed as I finished my dance, but my feelings overflowed again and so my knees felt weak and I collapsed well more like fell to the ground, crying softly as the music kept playing, I cried in my hands trying to conceal my tears and my crying but it wasn't helping, I was trying to calm down but I couldn't.

I kept crying and crying until I felt someone's hand on my shoulder, I stopped, my breath hitched and I felt an electric wave over me. I felt the smooth and soft lips on mine, I saw the most beautiful grey eyes I could ever see and I couldn't do anything but stay there shocked. Once he pulled away he softly put his hand on my cheek and I slightly leaned into his touch then got to my senses, I pulled away and stumbled back. I looked at him my face red, my eyes raised from slight shock and my body shaking, he seemed calm, squatting and looking at me, his eyes full of slight worry and slight passion.

He stood up and walked to me, I relaxed slightly but I was flustered still and I couldn't completely calm down. He squatted in from of me again "Eren, what I'm gonna say next is what I'm gonna say only once so you better listen" he said calmly and softly. He never uses my first name, he's serious, I calmed down as he put his hand on my cheek again and his other one on the wall behind me next to my head. "Um..O-Okay?" I slightly asked, he continued "I know I can be cold and an asshole, but when you kissed me I froze, I didn't know what do or how to act on it and hearing you cry almost all night made me want that to happen again just so I can say this. Eren Yeager I love you and I can't get you out of my head" he said, my face went full on crimson to my ears. I couldn't talk I didn't even breath for a moment until he snapped his fingers in from of my face "Yeager?" I snapped out of it and looked at him and blurted out the first thing my mouth would well blurt out. "I thought you hated me" he looked at me for a moment "Hated you?" he questioned for a second but before I could say anything he continued "I could never hate you" he said "I-I didn't mean to-" he cut me off with a kiss. I blushed more if possible but this time I kissed back, I enjoyed it and put my left hand on his cheek and my right arm on his left shoulder. This soft and passionate kiss quickly turned into a heated and hungry make out session, I couldn't control myself anymore, I wanted him so bad, I pulled at his hair with my right hand. I heard him groan at my pull, he slammed me back against the wall again, my back hit the wall and I gasped, he shoved his tongue further down my throat, I moaned into the kiss accidentally. I blushed and tried to pull away but my head hit the wall, he pulled away and looked at me as he licked his lips "You okay?" he asked panting slightly, I panted "Y-Yeah" I said, I was embarrassed after I moaned like that, I looked away from him.

I saw him smirk slightly out of the corner out of my eye, he grabbed my chin and made me look at him "Don't tell me you're embarrassed?" he said smoothly "N-No of course not!" I said trying to defend myself but my stutter failed me. He smirked once again and kissed me again "Mmpf!~" I was surprised slightly but I kissed back eventually, I felt his hand go under my shirt as he kept kissing me, now I put both my hands in his hair and pulled at it, he groaned slightly into the kiss again.

I felt his hand go higher while we made out until "Ahem" someone cleared their throat to get our attention and they did. I pushed Levi away and fixed my shirt, same with my hair, I looked at the person who cleared their throat to see Erwin standing at the doorway, I quickly got up and helped Levi up then went to my phone and turned the music that's was still playing off.

"Aren't you suppose to be practising?" Erwin asked, I didn't look up at him, being embarrassed as I was caught in such a situation. "We are, we just took a break" I heard Levi say "A break?" Erwin asked "Yeah and it's none of your business anyway, why are you here?" Levi asked "Armin told me Eren wasn't acting himself, I got here to check on him" Erwin said "Damn it Armin" I mumbled so only I could hear but I guess Levi heard as well since well he is standing next to me. "He's fine as you can see, can you leave now? We have practice to attend to" Levi said almost sounding like he would kill "If you say so, oh and next time lock the door" Erwin said then left. I sighed in relief "Maybe we should practice" I said and set my phone to the song we're making our routine on, he looked at me like he was expecting something "What?" I asked "Nothing" he said and started stretching, I smiled slightly, I went back to where I put my phone before and while passing Levi, I kissed his cheek "I love you too" I said as well. He roles his eyes "Brat" he said, I just pouted slightly then waited for him to finish stretching, he looked at me and I got up from the floor and went to him. I played the song once I was getting up, we went into the first position being more comfortable with each other I let myself relax in his arms, he held me for a few seconds then we started dancing together.

I could feel like our bodies connected and synchronized perfectly as we danced, I felt like we were the only ones in this world, I loved every second. We finished the first dance, I was on the floor with Levi's foot on my chest and me looking up at him as he looked at the mirror. I stared at him for moments on end, I could stare at him forever, he moved his foot from my chest and offered me a hand which I gladly took, he pulled me up, I almost stumbled from how quick he pulled me up but he caught me of course, we looked at each other, now I'm feeling lost, the shades of grey in his eyes are just amazing. We both leaned in and kissed for the 4th time this day, I returned the kiss with as much passion as I could as I felt my cheeks get a slight rosy colour of pink. Everything stopped for me again, I felt like we were the only ones in this world again. He pulled me up slowly while kissing and finally pulled away once I was up and standing "You okay?" he asked as he softly put his palm on my cheek, I leaned into the kiss "I am now" I said, for the first time in these few weeks, I don't feel jumbled up or my thoughts aren't a mess and I can actually smile.

I looked at him again and kissed him softly again with as much passion and love I could, I pulled away before he could kiss me back and leaned my forehead against his. "I love you so much" I said softly, he held my by my waist as I had my arms around his neck "I won't say it a lot but I love you to Yeager so remember that even in the worst situations" he said, we just stayed quiet, it wasn't an awkward silence but a comfortable one.

I heard a slow song come from my phone and Levi slowly moved with me following, we were enjoying the time we have right now. I leaned my head on his shoulder and we danced, he held me close and I felt protected, safe and happy. I go to blow off some steam and actually got something I wanted, I can't believe this happened in just a few days. "You're amazing Levi" I said suddenly but softly, I'm not sure but I think I saw the corners of his lips turn upward a bit "You are too Yeager" he said.

I want to continue like this, just dancing in each others embrace but we still have one more dance to make and we haven't even started on it. I think he was thinking the same thing, because he softly pulled away and so did I, I smiled slightly and then went to my phone and turned off the music. "So um..what will we start with?" I asked, he looked at me "Not sure, have any ideas?" Levi said/asked me "Well..." I got up and started saying what we could do and how to start, he agreed with me on some parts and added on other parts. All in all the dance we came up with was unique, we maybe added a few kisses in it as well. This day was really hard for me and I thought it was impossible for Levi to actually love an idiot like me, but I guess everything is possible.