Becoming a Kpop Idol❤

Chapter 60

So as we woke up, of our 3 hour nap, we went downstairs.
I heard that all of the members where downstairs. As Chanyeol and me were about to enter the living room, where all of the memebers were, he grabbed my hand and we walked hand in hand into the living room. At first their facial expressions were:"Wth are they doing?"
Chanyeol cleared his throat and said:"(Y/N) and me, are a couple. We are dating!"

Their expressions were ridiculous.

We were facing Baekhyun's back and as he turned around his expression was really funny.

The others had a smile on their face but as I looked at Sehun....

Well....

I started laughing at his expression, then he stood up and hugged me. He whispered in my ear:"That's my girl!"

I started laughing and hit his chest.

"Oh guys, you know that I had a thought of leaving my group and become a model. But I thought about it and I want to become a solo artist. I even wrote a song.", I said.

All of them were like:"Omg that is great!"

I went upstairs to get my stuff so I could go to my entertainment and tell them that I want to leave the group.

I ran upstairs to get my stuff. As I picked all my belongings up I turned around and was about to go, but then I bumped into someone and was about to fall on the floor but the person caught me just before I fell.

I looked in his eyes and fell even more in love with him.
"Thank you!", I said.
"No problem, babe!", he answered.
I started getting red as he said babe to me. I gave him a little peck on his cheek and said I had to go to my entertainment and tell them that I don't want to be a part of this group anymore.

He waved at me and had a smile on his face.
While I was passing the living room I said bye to the rest of the boys.

At first I went home and got ready. Brushed my teeth ate something and changed into new clothes and did my makeup again.

It took me 1 hour to get ready. So as I was done I took a deep breath and went out of my house. I was driving to my entertainment. As I arrived there I parked in the parking lot an went inside the building. The secretary bowed and greeted me I did the same and asked her where my manager and my group where. She pointed to our practice room. I thanked her and went to the door. Before I opened the door, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I entered the room and they were staring at me. I bowed and greeted them. I went to my manager and said I had something to say. She knew immediately that I didn't have any good news. 

She just nodded and led me the way to the middle of the room. I was really nervous. My members looked at me with excited faces. 

"So hey guys long time no see and talk. But uhmm....omg this is hard.", I said. As I said that, their expressions changed. They knew too that this wasn't going to end well. "Ok so, I just wanted to say. I love you guys. I love you for always being there for me and helping through thick and thin. But i realized a few days ago, that I don't want to be in this group anymore. It is not beause of you or our manager, it is just I have the fear of losing you guys like I lost my last group. Every time we performed or you guys drove away. The accident was always in my mind. So I think it is the best for me to maybe go solo or become an model, because I can't handle the pain anymore. I just wanted to let you know guys. You are the best thing that has happened in my life and thank you Manager-nim for giving me the opportunity to debut with this beatiful, loving and kind group. I am sorry that I am living you but it is just the best for my health. I hope you are not angry, but if you are I totally understand! I love you and I always will. I wish you the best and good luck in the future. I will always support you and hopefully we will see us on a lot of concerts", that is how my speech ended. 

I squatted down and started crying. Suddenly I could feel many people who hugged me as I looked up it were my group members and my mangaer. At the sight of that I strated to cry even more. They said, it is okay that I don't have to apologize and that they understand that I willbe leaving. At the end BM said:" (Y/N) whenever you need something or you feel down, whatever what we are here for you!" I hugged him and thanked him a lot. My manager said that she will clearify all that with the reporters and everything. I hugged the members and her one last time and before I left BM said:" (Y/N) wish you all the best! We will be supporting you! Fighting!! We love you!"

"I love you too! Fighting!", I waved them goodbye and before I exited the whole building I luckily had my mask with me so I puut on my mask and a cap I had with me cause my eyes were red after crying and I probably looked horrible, because I cried and my makeup was surely ruined. 

I quickly went to my car and drove home. As I parked I saw a big package in front of my house. I somehow was scared, but as I saw who send the box my thought and feeling changed immediately.