Crumbling Climax (Grey Love)

CHAPTER THREE

‘’ show me your true colors and I will build you a rainbow’

Next day I went to class late, because I had some things to clear up at the student
finance’s office. I wanted to be exempted from some other courses that I had already done from UNZA, but unfortunately I was unsuccessful because I had left UNZA over a year ago. I went to class when biology was almost done, lucky enough the lecturer didn’t ask me why I was late, I didn’t find any empty seat so I went and carried a chair from the next class.

I put my chair as further as I could from Michael, I didn’t know why but for some reason I decided to treat him like some of the people from my past that I chose to forget. After chemistry I carried my books without looking at anybody, I was the first person to leave class even before the lecturer did.

I went into the locker room; my locker was furthest away from the entrance if Angela hadn’t showed it to me the first day of class I would have surely failed to locate it. I locked my locker after putting my books back in and getting some instruments for Building science, the course I was going for just after lunch. The locker room was really empty; I could hear myself breathing with every step I took. 

When I reached half way of the room, I saw two people kissing leaning against a locker. It was never my intention but one of my instruments fell to the floor, and the shuttled couple glanced my direction. “I’m sorry, really sorry.” I said as I bend down and quickly picked up my set square. When the couple faced me that was when I noticed that it was Thelma and Michael, they were both running out of breath and sweating. “Fat creep! Can you fucking get out of here and go to psycho land.” Thelma yelled at me really frustrated. I shouldn’t have let her talk to me like that, I should have defended myself and put her in her place but I just walked away feeling really sad as bitterness clouded up my soul.
        
I never went to my after lunch class, I was in my room alone, sulking and crying my tears out. The words Thelma said to me hit me like a wrecking ball and just tore me apart. I hated the fact that I couldn’t keep myself from crying, I wasn’t the type of person to let mean people rain on my parade. A year ago my whole life had been perfect, I had been at the school of my dreams and had been so in love with the coolest guy in school. I had the coolest friends, a perfect social life and practically the girl every boy wanted to date, I had been the better version of Thelma. My body was beautifully curved even if I was not slim I was chubby but attractive, but within a blink of an eye I had lost everything. All the friends I had left me, I lost the two loves of my life and lost the future I had built for myself. I took my phone in my hands, and typed a poem as I
wiped my tears.  The words that I couldn’t speak were like caged beasts in my soul slowly devouring me.

FADING SPOTLIGHT

I found myself being alone.
The spot light fades now everybody is gone.
Funny how the show ends when you least expect,
When the crowd applauds it's like your final bow marks the peak of your life's orgasmic thrill. But before you realize it everything you ever thought you owned, will be long gone. And you will be all alone.
No friends, no lover, no money just loneliness. It hurts for it to be this way. When the things you loved to hear from your lover turn out to be lies, And the real truth is nothing you ever thought of
Those who you thought were your friends turn out to be the wolves you have been hiding from your whole life
Their sharp hidden claws mark the scar of betrayal on your face
And everybody can see how wrong you were to trust your enemy in disguise And your lover?
He bailed on you when you least expected.
You set him free but he couldn't fight for you, He gave up on you without a battle.
It's like you leaving was his excuse to finally live without you, when things got really tough he found the easiest way to abandon you and forged ahead.
Rain on my parade and take away my sunshine.
If seeing me in pain makes it easy for you to breath, then take away all my breath too.