Bliss

Part 8

I think about it, ending, almost all the time now. Everyday at school. Every moment of my day the peacefulness of ending is in the back of my mind. End. Sounds nice doesn't it. Very final but, nice. See the problem with me is, I will never be able to kill my self. I just wish I never existed in the first place. My friends have stopped talking to me because Alice apparently had a crush on Leo and word has spread that I'm some dumb slut/stupid whore. My grades are great though, I mean I've improved. Leo has stopped hanging around me because apparently Charlotte and him broke up. Cameron Able is the only person who has talked to me in weeks and that's only because he asked me for a pencil. I gave him a sparkly red one to match his red face and he smirked as he uttered a thank you. Then his girlfriend, Ava, glared at me the whole rest of class after that. I used to actually kind of care about what people thought but now I just float through school, awaiting the next class to carry me away. I'm just letting life go by and awaiting graduation, which I will not be attending, because I will leave everyone and enter the blissful afterlife.