Bliss

Part 9

As I sit in Algebra I await a reason to keep trying. Trying to fake it. Trying to survive. I'm annoyed. Cameron sits beside me, I look over and I catch him looking at me with a concerned look on his face. I hate myself. That's all I can think. He's something I think about but not as often as I think about how ugly, useless, and a waste of space I am. I'm so disgusted. I look back at Cameron. I make him uncomfortable I guess, he looked away after raising an eyebrow. The bell rings and I stand up like everyone else does. I head to choir and as I'm walking out Ava almost runs into me as she heads toward Cameron. Cameron asks her if they have any homework from the class she came out of because he has that class for seventh period apparently. Ava answers with a quick no and tells me to watch where I'm going. I respond with a roll of my eyes and she walks past me and I continue walking. Ava tells Cameron that all they need to do is study for a test. As I walk past him, he continues talking to Ava about studying together but I walked between them and I felt his breath on my ear.. I quickly walk past and I'm on my way to choir. I feel his breath on my ear for the rest of the day. I take my seat and Catherine shows up soon after me. Halfway through class she must've realized that I wasn't acting normal because she asked if I was doing ok. I replied with a shrug. She asks what was wrong and I replied with a shrug. Then she asked if I was mad at her which I replied with a shake of my head. She obviously gave up trying to get answers out of me because we didn't talk for the rest of class. I wanted the day to be over and I wanted to go to sleep.