What is it like?
Not being anxious.
It just all hurts too much
my intention is to not get attention but I can't help but want somebody to simply care
Why are you still going?
I thought I told you to stop
Why do I have to repeat myself?
I thought I trusted you
Why aren't you listening?
I thought you loved me
Why aren't I pushing you away?
I thought I was smarter than this
Why aren't you caring?
I yearn somebody to care
I don't want anybody to care
I want somebody to care
I love the way you outline my body shape
I love the way you kiss my lips
You love the way I give you blowjobs
You love the way we fuck
Stop it
Stop it
Stop it
I told you once, I told you twice
Stop it
Please just stop
Please just stop
Please just stop
Trust issues.
And then you isolate yourself
so you'll never understand the truth
Do they love you?
Or do they hate you?
Its easier to say they hate you
It doesn't hurt so bad when its the truth.
Leaving might be easier
Love ends up useless
I end up useless
I am haunted by humans
suicide is my growth from depression
Its a answer when things get too hard
too hard for your body to handle
when your feelings end up so numb that you can't seem to feel anything
because you have felt absolutely everything
pound pound
they tell you they love you
pound pound
they tell you they will always be there for you
FUCKING STOP
You love the way I give you blowjobs
You love the way we fuck
So when you get good grades and never make a mistake
You are still going to be at home being told that you were one
Stop it
Stop it
Stop it
I told you once, I told you twice
Stop it
Silence
The loudest noise.
Yet so deadly.
- Kayla Martin
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starstruck.
Poetry✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* something I'm not used to. 'Sharing my feelings' Read with care, Take my feelings into consideration. Understand them, My way of coping, is telling them through beautiful words.✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
