Craig's POV
Stan and I rest on the couch, holding each other and enjoying each other's company, we're watching red racer, which Stan shows no interest in, because half the time we watch it, he watches me watching it. He thinks I don't know, but I can see it on the corner of my eye. Throughout the whole show he's just watching... and waiting, for my expression to change, sometimes he kisses my cheek.
"Oh Craig... the guys want me to go hang out with them..." there it is. Every single day, and if he misses a day, it's because he's out in some foreign country with them. I hate them, and he knows I hate them, I've made it painfully obvious. He doesn't stop hanging out with them though... I cant really make him.
I sigh "Okay..." it makes me a bit upset when he goes, I love the guy. He puts his friends over me though, because we're still in the closet. I don't care if he does, but I want more time with my boyfriend. Not like I'd tell him that. I can't tell him 'I wanna spend more time with you because I love you' I haven't even told him I love him yet!
He gets up and he leaves so I'm left cold on my sofa. I get a blanket and wrap myself up in it, and curl up and yawn. Falling asleep on the couch.
My parents wake me up for dinner, they both don't get home until late because of their jobs. So dinner is usually late. I have dinner with them, then go up to my room, looking at my phone.
Multiple texts from Stan.
Stan- I'm sorry I keep leaving
Stan- Hon..?
Stan- I get that you're mad I keep hanging out with these assholes... but... I can't end friendships...
Stan- I won't be at school tomorrow, I'm in Brazil...
Stan- Please don't be mad at me...
Craig- I'm not mad... just... upset. Have fun in Brazil with your friends :)
Stan- Why are you upset?
Craig- It doesn't matter.
I put my phone down and curl up in bed, I won't see Stan for the rest of the week.
~The End of the Week~
I rest in bed, on my phone, scrolling through a bunch of nothing. There's a knock at my bedroom door and I turn to face it.
"Come in!" I exclaim, I watch the door knob twist and the door swing open, and Stan is standing there. I smile and hold my arms out.
"C'mere..." Stan shuts the door and walks over to me, getting under the covers and cuddling me.
"I missed you" Stan says, kissing my cheek.
"I missed you too... so much..." I nuzzle my head into his chest and sigh happily.
His phone goes off, and he looks at it. "Ah fuck... the guys want me to hang out..." it hasn't even been a minute.
"Do you... have to go?" I ask
"No... I don't want to... I just got back to you... but... I don't want them to raise suspicion..." Stan answers
"Oh..." I let go of him and he gets up, kisses my temple, and leaves. I sigh. He came here to fucking tease me with his presence.
I hate his goddamn friends. They're taking my boyfriend. I turn and curl up. Going to sleep.
I wake up to the sound of rocks hitting my window. Hmm. Must be hailing again. I sit up and look out the window. Nothing. I get up and open it, seeing Stan at the bottom of the place.
"Stan! What are you doing here?" I harshly whisper
"Let me up!" He responds, I try to find something that'll help him up, I ultimately decide on an old sheet. I can't reach that far down, the sheet is just far enough for him. I pull him up and fall back onto my bed, Panting. I'm not the strongest boy. He lays beside me and holds me.
"What'd you do with them?" I ask
"Same old shit, Cartman overreacted and drew us into it again." Stan answers. I sigh and get under the covers, hugging him.
"Don't leave again..." I say, I'm still quite weary, but I want to cuddle him tonight. All night.
"I don't want them to-" he starts
"Fuck it! They keep taking you from me. They won't let us cuddle for more than five minutes..." I sigh
"So you're saying you miss me?" Stan asks
"What? No. I don't miss your cuddles.. and your cute face..." I keep him close "Yeah... I guess I do miss you whilst you're gone." I add
"So cute..." He teases
"You don't miss me?" I look up at him, just in time to watch his face go red.
"I mean... I uh... I do... I miss you a lot while I'm gone, and I want to spend more time with you... but..." Stan stops to think
"But nothing." I glare at him "You can blow them off a few times without them getting suspicious... Please I want time with you... you give all my time with you away to your friends, so they can almost get you killed. I want to have a nice and boring life with you... sure, you can go on dumb adventures sometimes... but I want time with you, and if that means coming out to the whole school then sure. I hate staying away from you during the school day because we have to act as though we aren't as close as we are. We have to act like acquaintances rather than boyfriends." I look down and hide my face in his chest, holding him like he'll leave if I let go.
"Okay." He responds
"Okay to what?" I ask
"Let's come out to the school. Let's show them who we are. Let's show them that we love each other. That I don't want to go on their dumb quests anymore, that I want to stay here, like this." Stan says
"Love..?" I ask
"Fuck! Did I say that? Is it too soon?" Stand heart starts beating faster.
"Not soon enough." I smile and pull back to look up at him, he looks down at me and I see this as my time to strike. I pull myself up in a swift movement and connect our lips, it takes him a few moments before his lips move against mine, in those few moments I got a bit worried that this kiss would make him realize that he's not attracted to boys, but as soon as his lips pursed against mine I felt it, our love. I tilt my head to the side and deepen the kiss.
Suddenly, my door swings open, pulling us apart, but we weren't quick enough. My mom saw.
"Craig... Stanley...." She doesn't sound mad, or upset, she sounds... surprised.
"I... I'm sorry..." I hide myself, Stan protects me.
"I'm not mad sweetie... I'm proud..." Mom says, I sit up and look at her.
"You're... proud?" I ask, I haven't considered that as a possibility.
"Yes, you've found love. You're happy. Why wouldn't I be proud? You've found a positive path, you're who you are, I can't judge you for that..." She hugs me and leaves, she doesn't even care that Stan is here. At night, A school night.
I lay back down and look at him, he gives me a light smile. I return it and go back to our kiss. Which he gladly returns, Mom is right. I have found love. Eventually we both pull away, and his light smile turns into a big dumb(cute) grin.
"Craig. I love you." Stan says
I blush deeply, but don't hesitate to say "I love you too."
Stan and I lay facing each other. Our arms around one another. Our noses are almost touching.
"Oh my god..." I smile and peck his lips.
"Craig? Are you sure you wanna come out to everyone?" Stan asks
"Yes. I'm sure. If you're ready..." I smile slightly
"I'm ready." He says, smiling back at me. "Let's just go to sleep, we'll do it tomorrow. At the assembly, in front of everyone." He adds
"You're staying the night?" I ask
"Of course, I want some time with my baby boy." Stan answers "is that okay?" He adds
"Yes, It's always okay" I answer, he pulls me closer and cuddles me. He kisses my forehead.
"Get some rest" He says
"Okay, goodnight..." I answer
"Goodnight" He responds
~The Next Day~
Stan and I walk down the hallway together, I give him a reassuring smile and go into the gym, sitting on the bleachers next to one another.
"Are you sure?" Stan asks
"I'm sure, don't be nervous, we'll be fine, we have each other." I take his hand and smile lightly.
He lets go of my hand when his dumbass friends come to sit by us. Kyle takes Stan's attention from me and they begin talking, Cartman and Kenny soon join their conversation.
Halfway through the assembly Stan and and I are called up because I notified them that there was an announcement him and I had to make. I get up and Stan stays down. Obviously nervous.
"It'll be okay, I've got you..." I hold my hand out. He sighs and takes my hand, standing up, his friends give him a weird look.
"Hello fellow students." I say into the microphone
"For those of you who don't know, my name is Craig Tucker..." I add, Stan takes the microphone from me, I get a bit worried that he's just gonna ditch and book it with the microphone so I can't tell them. I'm shocked at the words that come out of his mouth.
"And I'm his boyfriend, Stan Marsh." He says, I smile and put my arm around his waist, and his arm goes around my neck.
"We just figured that we'd let you guys know, we're ready to be out. We're gay, and we're in love." I giggle, some of the girls start chanting for us to kiss. Stan and I look at each other and I turn bright red.
"Wanna?" He whispers to me, I put the microphone down and quickly shoot up to kiss him, he picks me up and kisses back, I wrap my legs around him and kiss him a bit more passionately.
The girls scream in excitement, and there aren't any boo's. We pull away and Stan puts me down, we look at the crowd and go back to our spots.
"You're a fag... with him?" Cartman asks
"Fuck off Cartman, who cares about who he loves, leave him alone." I glare at him, Stan gives me a concerned look.
"Fine, Whatever." Cartman turns to look away
~After School~
Stan and I lay on the couch together, cuddling and kissing each other whenever, now that everyone knows we aren't so cautious around anyone. Nobody seems to mind.
He takes off my hat to play with his hair "Is this what you wanted?" He asks
"Being able to spend all my time with you? Yeah. It is..." I answer
"Good. Me too." Stan says
"You sounded a bit angry..."
"Dramatic effect."
"You're so fucking gay..."
"Says the guy that kisses me, and is currently cuddling me."
"I was just talking about you... we didn't say anything about how gay I am."
"One-hundred percent?" Stan asks
"Precisely" I answer, giggling.
He lays down and has me lay on top of him, he cuddles me that way, I end up laying to his side, just in adjusting.
A few hours I wake up in bed, he's still with me, we aren't cuddling, but we're next to one another. I turn and put my arm around him. Grabbing one of his legs with both of mine and wrapping them around his. Pulling myself closer to him as if I'm stretching against him, but I just wanna be close. I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep. I feel a hand go around me, it's placed on the center of my back, I look at Stan. Still asleep. I smile and nuzzle myself further into him.
"I love you" I say in a quiet whisper, before closing my eyes and falling back into a blissful sleep.
