Mr. Cold-hearted

Chapter One

Every day at 5 a.m. life starts to me. I try to silence the alarm but I just can't, I need to resolve something in order to silence it.
I try to get up but sometimes I'm too lazy to achieve what I want.
When I finally get up (nearly 5:40) I listen to some music and I start with my morning routine.
I don't usually take a shower, I'm too lazy and I think it's a waste of time and water so I just wash my face, brush my teeth and comb my hair.
I wear almost the same clothing every day, I'm just too lazy to choose between lots of ones, I guess I'm like Mark Zuckerberg or Steve Jobs.
Today I'm wearing a blue shirt, black pants, a black jacket and black shoes.
I turn my headphones on and I go downstairs in order to prepare breakfast.
It's about 6:00 a.m. but my parents are already there I say "good morning" as always, I used to kiss them, but not anymore, I just feel it's not necessary and our relationship is not healthy or the best, unfortunately.
I have breakfast and I go to school. My dad gives me some money, my mom just says "bye".
And here's when my real me appears. Far from people who knows me I become in the worst cold-hearted monster you could imagine.
Outside weather is cold, I take a deep breath and I feel how cool air invades my body, I feel it inside my lungs and deeper, inside my soul and spirit.
My dad gave me money to take a taxi but I always try to walk, it's more fun and it gives me the opportunity to save money.
I walk and walk, my school is kind of far from my house.
It's still very early, I take some time to visit my favorite park in the town, a big, full of enormous trees park that I love. It has a beautiful sculpture in the center, a fountain and lots of different flowers. I think it's peaceful, it makes me calm when I am falling apart.
It's pretty early in the morning, people is running, someone just hit me, she said "sorry" and continue running.
It makes me angry but today I'm trying to be positive, I'm pretty tired of being negative all the time, maybe today I will even hang out with some people, that's incredible coming from me.
So I tried to calm down, I just said "it's okay" and I walked around the park, breathing the cool morning air and enjoying life, my heart was still heavy and my soul sad, but at least my mind was relaxed and calm.
I was doing that for almost twenty minutes so I started to get tired, I took a sit near to the fountain and far from the runners. I felt relaxed and grateful but I just remembered time. I got kind of scared, then I realized I got almost an hour to continue enjoying the park, it was great, I couldn't feel better than that, everything was going on in a perfect way.
I was listening to music and thinking as always, I love to think, it's just what I do the most, think and think and think and think... I love it so much, that's why philosophy is always the best subject in my opinion, I am also the best student, I always get the best scores because thinking is what I do the most and my favorite activity in the world.
I'm in love with different theories and philosophers, they are in my opinion the only real intellectuals.
I got my favorite activity to do for almost twenty minutes, but something happened...
- Good morning, sir. May I catch your attention for some minutes?
I was so focused that she kinda scared me, she noticed it and smiled, I just looked at her eyes, beautiful green eyes, and I said:
- Good morning, miss. Yes, I got some time to talk to you.