Mr. Cold-hearted

Chapter 2

I'm so sorry I interrupted your meditation she said.
The woman in front of me was a beautiful young lady, her hair was brown and curly, her eyes were green and bright. She was wearing a black skirt and a blue and white shirt with black dressy shoes (After some minutes I realized she was dressed the same way than me). I think she was a little younger than me, maybe a couple of years younger, so I think she was at least 20 or 21 years old.
She took a sit next to me, I think she was attractive to be honest so my heart started to beat faster when she was next to me.
It was so dumb, it made me so angry, but I started to laugh in order to hide what my body couldn't hide.
My voice and hands started to shake, my hands and feet started to get cold, ugh it made me even angrier but I thought it was normal and she wasn't going to notice it.
I started talking:
- What would you like to talk about Ms? I don't want to be disrespectful with you, but I have to leave in some minutes.
- Oh no please, it's going to be fast, I just wanted to tell you about Jesus and God, how he is the only one savior and creator, he can improve our lives, he can save us from a cruel destiny ... Just like the Bible says in John...
She just took a Bible and started to read. To be honest, to me those kind of things are irrelevant and stupid, God is not real and he will never be. I tried to be as respectful as I could but when she said "he is powerful and he can ruin or improve our lives any time he wants" I rolled my eyes and I tried to don't lose control of myself. Now I was starting to think that it was a really bad idea, I even thought the girl was ugly and stupid. It's dumb because 5 minutes ago I was convinced that she was really beautiful.
She continued talking one minute more but then she suddenly stopped.
- Don't you believe me? She said.
- No, of course not, I'm sorry.
- Are you an atheist?
- Yes, I am.
Her eyes just turned sad, it kinda broke my heart because I was thinking about how beautiful her eyes were, but not anymore, it's like my words just killed the beautiful shine in her eyes.
- It's okay if you are an atheist. I'm sure God will understand and he will forgive you for what you are saying and feeling, she said.
- Okay. But to be honest I don't really care.
Oh my gosh I was kinda enjoying that feeling, I was making her sad, her smile just disappeared and her eyes lost their shine again, and it was even worse this time.
God I can't explain what I feel when I do this, I feel pleasure, I feel satisfaction, I am sick and I enjoy making people sad, specially cute beautiful girls.
A tear just came from her right eye, I offered her something to dry her tears.
- What happens? I said.
- Your words, you just really try to be mean with people even when you are not.- She started to cry.
It broke my heart, but to be honest, it was a good feeling, good and bad at the same time, I don't know how to explain this but I'm happy when I'm sad, I feel powerful, superior.
I just took advantage of the situation and I tried to hug her  (she was a beautiful girl, of course I would try that).
Then I looked at her eyes and I got lost in them, some weird feeling invade me, I felt like someone was stimulating my soul, it was so dumb, it felt good but at the same time I felt something, like a shield that didn't let that force to continue and I finally got that feeling out of my chest.
- What did you feel? She said, with tears in her eyes.
- I don't really know, it's weird.- I just tried to look at my hands, I didn't want to get lost in her eyes again.
- Did you like it?
- Yes. But it's just weird.
- Okay. Would you like to try again?
- Yes, but I'm scared.
- Don't be scared. I promise I won't hurt you.
That phase gave me chills, I didn't know what to do.
- I'm still scared.
- Don't worry, you can hold my hands.
I didn't want to lose that opportunity so I accepted. I was so excited and happy, I was going to hold her hands while looking at her eyes! I thought it would be cute and romantic and she was pretty so I was really happy.
I thought it was just going to be a normal situation, but when I looked at her eyes, I almost passed out for what I saw.