Mr. Cold-hearted

Chapter 5: About loneliness

I felt her hands on mine and I looked at her eyes again.
As I got lost in them I heard a voice inside my head that said "relax please, please relax, darling I'm not going to hurt you" that voice gave me chills but I wanted to follow her so I just ignored what I was feeling.
The voice made me feel anxious at the beginning but after some minutes I felt a little better.
I started talking to the voice:
- Please help me.
- Of course I will help you, but I want you to be completely sincere with me please.
- Okay, I can try.
- Are you scared?
- Yes, a lot.
- How many friends you have?
- Five, I lied.
- Okay, five. - The voice was really soft at the beginning but now it was getting louder.
- Yes, five.
- Please tell me the truth.
- I have no friends.
- Do you feel lonely?
- Yes. - I felt something in my heart, it was a bad feeling. -
- Would you like to have someone to share your thoughts?
- Yes, I said again.
- Do you think you have love to give?
- NO, I said. I don't know what that feeling is.
- Again, I already know you. You can't lie to me.
- Okay, yes. I guess I have love to give.
- Lots?
- Yes, lots.
- And what do you think it's happening with that love?
- I'm wasting it, I said. And a dumb tear came from my left eye. I felt her hand caressing my check but I was so focused talking with my (or her, I don't really know right now) awareness that I didn't react to her touch.
- Say it again please, the voice said.
- I repeated: I'm wasting all the love I have.
- Again, please.
- I'm wasting all the love I have.
- What do you usually do to keep yourself distracted?
- I listen to music, I watch videos, I read, I check social networks.
- Okay. What do you use to listen to music, watch videos, read and check social media?
- I use my phone.
- Your cellphone?
- Yes, my cellphone.
- Yes, your cellphone. That magical thing that helps you ignoring how lonely you are, right?
I was kind of shocked, it was true, unfortunately.
- Yes, you are right.
- Thanks for actually understanding what I meant.
After that, I felt like the conversation finished and I got to talk to the girl again. She was just smiling when I looked at her.
- Is it over?
- Only if you want she said.
- No, I would like to continue if you don't mind.
- Don't worry at all, I would love to continue too.
I was excited and shocked at the same time, also a little annoyed, I don't want to lose my shield, but I guess that's what I was doing and she already realized about the real me, so I thought I was okay, just because she was actually trying to help me.
I slowly take my phone out and I gave it to her. She received it and said: What does this means?
- Please, give it so someone who actually needs it, just erase everything.
- Okay. - She was a little afraid, maybe because she wasn't expecting it.
I started to sing softly:
One day, one day, one day it all will fade...
She looked at me so I tried to stop but I couldn't.
One day, one day, one day it all will fade...
I started to get scared for that, but I thought it would be like a revelation or something like that so I just ignored it.
When I finished singing Fade by James Arthur I apologized.
- I'm sorry I don't know what happened.
- Oh no please, I loved it.
- Okay. - I smiled, GOD the first real smile in a long time. I was amazed.
My heart got happy for a minute.
- Now, I need you to hold my hands and close your eyes.
- Sure, I said.
I started to sing in my mind, the same song I sang five minutes ago.