Mr. Cold-hearted

Chapter 9: About money and expectations

- Since now, I will talk to you, it's more fun to talk to you.
- What do you mean? ... Oh sure! I hope you learned something from our awareness.
- Yes, I did. Thank you very much. It was such a great experience.
- It's my pleasure. Should we continue? I understand if you are getting tired.
- I am a little tired, tired of crying, tired of being sad, tired or being broken.
- I know. That's why I am here.
- And I'm grateful for that.
- What's your greatest dream?
- I want to be a supreme judge, maybe even the president, I also want to be rich, really rich, extremely rich.
- Anything else?
- No.
- That's not true.
- I know.
- What do you really want in life?
- I want money and power so my parents could look at me and feel proud and happy.
- They will feel proud, but happy? I don't think so.
- What do you mean?
- If you just achieve power and wealth your life will be even more empty and sad than now. And you will reflect it, it's not something you can hide. Your parents will notice your empty life and they will be sad like you, because their son is not happy and successful just rich and powerful, but no successful, never successful.
- Okay.
- Did you understand?
- No.
- Wealth and power won't make you successful, you will be someone important of course, someone really important and powerful, someone rich and famous, but think about you, your lonely life and your mental health. For example: what would you like to do when you get home after a day at work?
- Read, sleep.
- Okay, sleep. You will have a wonderful luxury bedroom, a king size bed, silk sheets, but you won't have the most important thing.
- What's it?
- You won't have someone.
- I don't want someone.
- We know that's not true. Now tell me, what are your real desires? Don't ask your brain please, ask your heart and think about it.
I did what she told me to. And after 5 minutes I was ready to tell her.
- Okay. I think now I know.
- What do you want?
- I want an amorous wife to talk with, I want hugs and kisses from her, I want to tell her about my thoughts and dreams, I want to tell her about my secrets, I want to being confident with her, I want to share my experiences with her, I want to sing to her, I want to make her happy every day, I want to lay my head on her chest and - I sighed - feel loved and give all my love to her.
- Thanks. Those are really cute desires.
- That's all I want.
- Are you sure? I thought you wanted power and money.
- I want those kind of things but they are not the most important, I can work to get everything I want, but if I need to give up on something, I think it's better to give up on material things.
- Those are better kind of thoughts, they warm my heart.
- Yes, they are. - I said with a sad voice. -
- Don't be sad please. Now we need to figure out stuff as always.
- Sure.
- Well, it's pretty easy I think. You saw gold so I think it represents wealth and money you can earn.
- Yes, I was thinking about that too.
- And now, I think the moon represents your expectations, you want to be a supreme judge even the president. I think you want something even greater but you that power is not created yet.
- Yes, you are right.
- You want to achieve everything, you want to go to the moon.
- Yes. - I was getting a little tired, it was about 2 p.m. and she noticed it. -
- Well, I think we are done for now, this time it was great, no tears, yay!
- Yes, yay. - I said with a sad voice.
- Are you okay?
- No, as always.
- Are you tired?
- Yes, a little.
- Oh don't worry, I understand.
- Thanks.
- You can always lay on my lap if you want.
What??? I started to believe this was just a dream. This can't be happening.
- Are you sure?
- Yes, I am sure.
I lay on her lap and she started caressing my head.
- Can you sing me to sleep? - It was not necessary, I was already really tired. -
- Every time, every doubt, every time you've fallen down...
... You are beautifully broken and you can be whole again...
Her voice was really cute, it melted my heart, I started to smile all silly.
I was thinking about the song, then I realized it was Beautifully Broken by Plumb.
I feel asleep after one minute and yes, I dreamed of her and her voice, some happy tears dropped from my eyes.
I felt loved for the first time in my life.