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Chapter 10

Song - please don't say you love me by Gabrielle Aplin

I haven't talk to Oliver in 2 weeks, I saw him because I still clean his house. He's looking good and he's still with Bella. I got a new house to clean so I'll be making more money. I have schedules for cleaning. I don't really know how to act I just feel so dull. I go to Oliver house first for 2 hours than I move on to the next house and clean for 2 hours. On the weekends I'm there for 5 hours. School has been good, still with no friends. I been getting tagged in Instagram posts asking where I was but it's only because of Oliver. Bella hasn't done anything to me yet, I don't think she will anyways. I got to go now and see what the world has for me, if Oliver would want to talk to me. 

Natalia: so I  leaving and you have to take care of Mateo. Sebastian and I got to go and get his hair done. Oliver, I don't really know what he will be doing so he might join you.

Me: ok

Natalia: Sebastian let's go

Sebastian: coming

Me: see you guys

Natalia: ok bye

Sebastian: bye

Me: Mateo I'm going to wash the dishes so if you need anything just ask

Mateo: ok

Oliver: hey Mateo where mom, is she in the kitchen

Mateo: n-

Oliver: I'll go check

Oliver: mom oh nevermind

Me: hi Oliver

Oliver: hey

Me: did you need something

Oliver: no but can I ask you something

Me: yeah

Oliver: what you said the last time we talk, was it true

Me: yes

Oliver: Bella was glad we stopped talking and she told me that you wanted us to break up so you can be with me

Me: Oliver she trying to make you think I'm a liar. I'm not regiment make you break up with her

Oliver: do you love me

Me: Oliver I .... I don't know

Oliver: I get it, I'll just leave you be

Me: Oliver, there's just so much that I don't know yet

Oliver: I get it you don't have to tell me anything Cordelia

Me: Oliver I don't want this to happen again. You not wanting to talk to me just because of what I said. Oliver you need to get that I'm not perfect, I don't know what you want me to say. I don't know whats right or wants wrong. I just feel like everything I do is wrong

Oliver: No one's is perfect

Me: it sure do look like you are and your whole family

Oliver: I'm not perfect, why do you think that

Me: just look at you than look at me, your life v.s my life

Oliver: your life is perfect just because it's not that great doesn't mean it isn't. There's a lot of people who would love to have your life

Me: and there's a lot of people who would like to have your life or have you notice them once. I got to go sorry but you have to look after Mateo. Tell your mother that I had to leave

Oliver: Cordelia please don't go

Me: I'm sorry but I have to go

Oliver: what is it, me

Me: no it's me I have to go

Oliver: why

Me: I have other places to clean besides just yours

Oliver: I'll let you go, I'm just holding you back

Me: bye

Oliver: text me