Dear Italy » Kylian Mbappé

thirteen | present

YOU KNOW WHEN you say that you'll keep in touch and finally do something, but then time goes and nothing happens. That's where I'm at.

It's in the middle of September and I've talked to Kylian a few times but I'm still sailing around to different extraordinary places while not knowing anymore why I do it.

I see Kylian winning all these prices and having an incredible year of success. Where am I at? I am even more lost than I was before I tried to find myself.

I've started to doubt me and Kylian. We aren't even together and I'm having anxiety over it.

I just have to tell him that I'm not ready to have a relationship with him. I can't be so selfish and leave Kylian maybe thinking that we can be a thing.

I look at the text; the few words that have so much meaning and can hurt someone in less than a second. But really it's me that's going to be the most hurt. I love him too much to make him be with me, I'm to messed up and unstable.

KYLIAN'S PERSPECTIVE
"Kylian, I just want to be clear. I don't think we would work out if we became a couple. Hope that you understand. Love, Angel." I've read it again and again.

Even when she has denied our relationship I still love her. I love the fact that she ended the message as if it was a letter. I try to look for the better things with that sentence when I know that my heart is crushed into a million pieces.

What should I do? Should I just move on and forget everything about us together? I loved that I had someone that I saw as perfect for me. Not just someone, I had Angel and she is perfect even though she don't want to see it.

I don't care that I'm seen as too emotional, I express that I care about something important.

How could she do this to me? Now I feel so empty, laying in my bed. Before, I could imagine Angel laying beside me. But now, I can feel her hand slipping away from mine.

THIRD PERSPECTIVE - Natalia and Frans
There was something with the peaceful mornings. It's like in a matter of seconds, hell will break lose. Maybe it the destiny.

Natalia looks at Frans as they eat their breakfast. "Do you have something to tell me?" Natalia asks, breaking the silence. "No. Why?" Frans casually say as if it was nothing she had asked.

"Nothing, just that you seem so different." she say.
"We just have this big thing at work." he say letting a big sigh out. "Cut your bullshit and tell me. I think that I can handle your small problems." Natalia say and Frans laughs at her comment.

"I know that you can more than me but it's still me who owns the company." Frans answers hugging Natalia as she has raised up from her chair and walked behind his chair to give him some warmth and love.

While Kylian and Angel have the typical young love problems, Natalia and Frans makes us still believe in love. At least someone does.

Maybe Angel will find her path and think back at this and say that it was for the best, even though it did hurt like nothing else.

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Did Angel make the best choice? What do you think she should have done instead?

Do you guys want to see more of Natalia and Frans or just Kylian and Angel?

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