When A Heartbeat Breaks

Chapter 8 - Im fine.

~Sam's POV~

I pulled away from Mia after my crying session was over.

"Sorry.." I apologized. I can't believe I cried Infront of anybody. Oh shit, my step dad is going to kill me if he finds out!

"Don't apologize," Mia gave me a comforting smile, but something was off about it.. And it wasn't the same as Emily's. It never will be, her's was special. I half-heartedly smiled back to her, and packed my stuff.

"I've gotta get home before somebody kills me.." I say, and leave. Just before I set off, a voice spoke up again.

"Are you alright?" She asks in genuine concern.

"Why wouldn't I be?" I ask back.

"You just broke down crying over a girl. Your in a rush to escape and get home because somebody is going to kill you, and I've got a feeling it's not a joke. Is it them bullies? Your stepdad?-"

"He doesn't deserve a dad title!" I lash out. Woops. I grab my bag, muttering an apology as I scurry out of the door. I probably made a scene, I dont want to be in there any longer.

I catch a glimpse of somebody running a corner. If I wasn't mistaken, I believe it's Emily. I shake that though, it can't be. Why would she be anywhere near here? She has no reason, non of her friends lived around here, we only ever came when we visited the smoothie shack. And why was she running? Oh well, I've got to get over her. But some things are impossible.

"Sam," Mia came from behind. Why can't she leave me alone?!

"What do you want?!" I lash out again. Can't she see I need to go. Like, NOW.

"You need to get over her," oh like I don't already know that.

"I'm fine. I don't need your advice," I spat.

"I know your fine. Fine means; Fucked up, insecure, needy, and emotional," she replied. I didn't answer back though. I just thought about it. She's right. I'm definitely fucked up. I'm insecure about everything. I'm needy but I can't show it. I'm very emotional. I can't think straight and it's killing me.

"I may not know how to help with the other things, but I know damn well that I can help with your heartbreak," I let a phew tears shed. Somebody actually cares. The last person was my mother.. I thought Emily cares but, Why would she? Maybe Mia is just lying. How could she even care? She did the dumbass thing of coming out to the school, maybe she's just lonely. Using me like everybody else does.

"How?" I asked back, voice breaking.

"Come back inside, it's gonna rain," she said, pointing to the sky. I obeyed her command and followed her back in without a word. We sat back down at the table.

"You need to tell her," she commanded.

"Tell her what?" I don't need to tell her anything. Not a single word.

"You need to explain to her your heartbreak, letting it all out will help, and it will let you move on," That's a good idea to be honest. Only one problem.

"How? She told me not to speak to her ever again..." I said, barely above a whisper.

"Message her. Say she doesn't need to respond, but you just need to let it all out," Bloody hell Mia knows alot. Why does she know this crap?

I obeyed, retrieved my phone from my hoodie pocket and pulled up mine and Emily's texts. More tears crept from their cages as I saw the previous messages.

I hesitated. I really don't want to do this. I looked up at Mia with a pleading gaze, somehow saying I really really don't want to do this. She just nodded to the phone. I sighed, and began typing.

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New Message:

Sam:
    Emily. You don't have to respond to this but I have to respond to the heart you've broken and stopped from beating. I've tried to think of a way to be without you but every time I do I hurt myself even more. I don't care how much you hate me or how much I'll get hurt by your idiot of a boyfriend 'Chad' but I need to tell you that I still love you, and I don't give a fuck how much pain I have to go through to let you know that

But anyway, I love you and need you. I'm just trying to let go.

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I clicked send, and immidietly locked my phone. I don't want to see any reply and I honestly dont want to see if she read it.

"That good enough?" I ask. Mia was reading it as I typed.

"Yeah. Want me to walk you ho-" I interrupted her.

"No! I'll get killed if my step dad saw me with somebody, especially a girl," Mia seemed like she understood.

She nodded and helped me pack my stuff. We said our goodbyes and parted ways. Back to hell. Yey.

~~A/N~~
So this is a chapter... Yep.. the amazing and fantabalous angel Pony_Artist Wrote the text message. Thank you again angel 😘

Toodles noodles!