Stripes can be Tamed

chapter 13: checkmate

A/N-- By now I know you all are thinking cody is an asshole,  which he totally is if you've read the last chapter. So enjoy more of cody being an asshole.

  Kurt

       Work was stressful today. All I could think about besides being in fashion block was that Blaine knew. Blaine knew about cody and I. He knew about our arrangement. It's not the weirdest thing to happen to a relationship.  I mean plenty of people are now making this the new normal.

        Cody told me the type of guy he was. I was well aware of the life he lives and the things he likes to do.  The old kurt Hummel would have totally rejected the idea of having his man sleep with other men on the occasion.  He would have went crazy. Tried to control the situation as usual.  This new kurt Hummel however was not like that.

        This new kurt Hummel was open to the idea of sharing. I've realized I'm not special like I thought. No guy is ever going to want to be with me and only just me. I realized I needed to lower my standards.  The reason I got cheated on the first time was because I wasn't enough for him or good lokking.

        The second time I got cheated on was when I first moved to new York. His name was lionel.  He was a senior at nyada.  One of the most beautiful men I had laid eyes on since the break up with Blaine.

           Lionel was so sweet at first. He made feel comfortable and safe. I loved that feeling, he just didn't love me. Since he was older than me lionel thought I was naive.  Truth is I was.  I was naive to think he didn't just want me for sex.

         I still chose to stay anyway, because it was better than being alone. We dated for a year until I found out from the guy he was sleeping with.  He came to my job and humiliated me in front of my co workers. I had called lionel to see if it was true.  He didn't have a problem denying it at all.

          I had felt pain . The familiar pain I had when I caught Blaine cheating on me. I cried so hard that night. All my insecurities came rushing back from the Blaine situation,  then lionel cheating on me.

       Back in high school my dad told me not to throw myself around like I don't matter. If he knew the type of relationship I have now,  he would lose his mind. I could just tell him about the engagement and leave it at that.

        When I finally got home from work I started to prepare dinner for cody and I. Cody was sweet. Cody knows how to treat a guy the way he deserves to be treated. No guy has ever said they loved me before, he's th e first man who loves me.

"Baby, I'm home!" Cody yelled from the front door. Cody walked into the kitchen and grabbed me from behind my waist to kiss my neck.

"Someone is in a good mood tonight. "

"Looking at you does that to me. What you cooking?"

"Just homemade ravioli recipe I use to cook for my dad. Taste. "

"Delicious. It doesn't taste as good as you though. "

I blushed before replying.  " why thank you honey. Maybe I could remind you of how good I taste. "

"What about the ravioli?"

I turned off the stove. "All done! Let's fuck on the couch." Cody threw me over his shoulder and led me to the living room.

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      Laying in the bed cuddled up to cody felt wonderful. I felt so connected to him. Then I realized in a couple of minutes it would be Tuesday. It would be his day to be with another man the way he is with me.