Trouble

Something

It's around ten in the evening when Namjoon's doorbell finally rings and he would have jumped up to open right away if he hadn't been standing already. He has been nervously pacing up and down the hallway in his apartment for at least half an hour now, trying to process the mess of a situation he got himself into this time. Namjoon usually doesn't watch the news a lot but today he did, just to see if Seokjin would seem somehow different. Nervous. Distracted. Anything other than his usual calm and collected charming personality. But if Seokjin was even the slightest bit unnerved because of his conversation with Namjoon he didn't show any of it. For a moment Namjoon almost had himself convinced that he only dreamed up their entire conversation and that nothing of it ever happened. But no matter how many times he checked his twitter messages, the conversation didn't disappear. It really happened.

At around nine Namjoon was convinced that Seokjin would not show up after all and he was already halfway finished with typing out an entire apology, telling Seokjin that he didn't really mean any of it, that he was just messing around a little, that he would delete the song and that he was so very sorry about everything. But the little voice in the back of his mind urged him to keep going. Because at this point he is in way too deep to just chicken out again, there is no turning this back around. Any apology would seem unsincere right now. Also how often will a chance to hear those beautiful moans in reality just fall in Namjoon's lap like that? He can't just let that go to waste. And yes, this is blackmail and morally completely wrong and maybe even illegal but now he is here already, so he might as well go through with it to the end. He's going to go down with this ship.

So when the doorbell rings Namjoon opens it almost instantly, needing only three big steps to reach it. Which is definitely not what he should have done. He should not be the nervous one in this situation. When he sees Kim Seokjin standing in front of his door, Namjoon's heart stops for a second. The man is even more breathtaking in real life than he seems in pictures or recordings. He is tall, almost as tall as Namjoon, but just a slight bit smaller. And yet that proud glare in his eyes makes Namjoon feel like the smaller one. His broad shoulders stretch wonderfully under the dress shirt he is still wearing. On camera, it appeared to be plain white but right now in the dim light of Namjoon's hallway, it seems light blue. And his face is so much more beautiful than Namjoon had thought it to be. He's seen it in a blurry video taken with a smartphone and he has seen it in high definition on TV, but neither could capture the true beauty of Kim Seokjin. Right now his wonderful full lips are curled into a frown, eyebrows furrowed, eyes gleaming with what Namjoon assumes to be anger. Or maybe disgust. And yet he is beautiful. Namjoon can't even imagine how ethereal Seokjin would look like with a smile on his face. Eyes sparkling as he looks at Namjoon.

Seokjin pushed past Namjoon and into his apartment without a word of greeting while Namjoon was still standing in the doorway completely dumbfounded. Slowly, Namjoon closes the door and turns around to watch Seokjin take off his shoes and coat and even those simple gestures seem to be filled with rage, even though on the outside Seokjin is calm and collected. He doesn't kick off his shoes, doesn't toss the coat on the floor or anything. But his whole body seems tense. Like he is about to snap at any second.

"So where is your bedroom?", he finally speaks up. His voice sounds cold as ice and it literally sends shivers down Namjoon's back. For a moment he almost forgot that this is what he is here for. That they are about to do this. He can't back out of this anymore.

"Just follow me", Namjoon replies weakly. And it's so stupid that he is the one with the shaking voice. Because he should not be allowed to be the one feeling bad for himself in this situation. He shouldn't be the nervous one. After all, he is not the one being forced to have sex with a random stranger using his old porn videos to blackmail him. No, Namjoon is the asshole in this. He is the one forcing some poor guy into having sex with him. He should not be the nervous one. And yet he is, because he is a victim of his own stupidity just as much as Seokjin is.