Tales For The Broken

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I don't understand. Everything was going so great. I had come out to my mum she said it was fine and I came out to my crush and he was ok with it and he is trying really hard to use the correct pronouns. Then my mum and dad tell me they don't think I should be pan and that they are not going to use the correct pronouns. My friends. Two of my best friends are mad at me because I fucked up and I know I did but I can't go back in time to fix it. My best friends. There all suicidal. They don't know how much I love them. They all mean so much to me because when I was younger I had no friends. No one excepted me but then I found my friends and they understand me. They get me in ways no one else does. I love them all so damn much. They deal with my shit and do stupid favors I ask them to do. Like finding out what kind of binder a person in a different grade uses or asking my crush who they like. No matter what it is they are always there for me. My crush. The person I'm in love with. I told him that I really liked him and he has not texted me back. I have school tomorrow so I will figure it out.

Look at all these updates wow its because I have been writing these for a while and I just now realized I never posted them. So yeah I wrote this a week ago and my love never talked to me about it he pretended nothing happened he's not in my grade so I don't see him much except during lunch and at the beginning of the day and in the halls but even then he's around his friends and his friends well I don't think they like me because the last time I went over to him they all except one looked at me like I just murdered someone. I have his phone number and we used to talk a lot but now he's always busy except the one time he face timed me but that was a one-time thing. God, I love him so fucking much I want to kiss him.  When he told me he liked someone in his grade I tried to be confident and I said "well they must be pretty great if they beat me" and said "There really nice but ur still fucking awesome" but I feel like he just said that so I did not feel bad. This book was originally going to be short stories and it turned into a rant/vent book. I promise I will write a short story soon. 

I love you all soooooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! <3