Tales For The Broken

Venting to this story cause literaly no one reads this

My first day of school had gone pretty well except for the weird looks everyone keeped giving me. I felt really confident I was wearing black skinny jeans a red shirt tucked in to my high waisted pants and I had a fake leather jacket. I had also just dyed my hair blue yesterday so it looked amazing. My friends keeped telling me I looked great and that they loved it but no one else seemed to like it but that's not the point of this story. So I came into the school shaking I was sweating and shivering at the same time I was breathing very heavy because it felt hard to breath and I thought I was going to throw up. I had not seen my crush all summer and I was excited to see him but where we wait for the bell to ring he was not there. So I freaked out because he had not texted me for like 4 days. Then we were at an assembly and he came running in but he could not sit by me not that he wanted to sit by me. Then during lunch I went up to him so did like 10 other people so he ran away and I don't blam him. Then I went up to him later and he ran away again. So that rely hurt idk why but it really hurt. Then on my home on the bus This person who I will not name who is a great person that hates drama and gossip told me that someone was talking shit about me actually like 10 people 2 witch I thought were my friends but I guess not.  I don't know exactly what they were saying but it was something about how I'm gender fluid and not in a good way like talking shit about me behind my back. It started because I changed my name because I feel more comfortable it's a more masculine name too witch I like. I hope tomorrow is better I hope I get to talk to my crush not have people talk shit about me and be less scared.

The next day
I never talked to my crush. He ran away again. I also stole my best friends book "The Amazing Book Is Not On Fire" yasssssssssssss! It was a fairly normal day. I don't have much to say.

The next day
I got a hug from my crush but a really awkward one because we were in the front of the cafeteria and next to his friends. But idk why he was avoiding me. I made him a birthday present and basically throwing it at him and saying happy birthday because I was too awkward to do anything more. But later he came up to me and said he was going to buy magnets and hang the picture in his locker and that was sweet. I think I love him.
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