sometimes you meet people, that make you feel worthless, like you're nothing but a f a i l u r e, like everything you do is not good enough, like you're not good e n o u g h.
their words are b u l l e t s and their mouth is the t r i g g e r with each bullet, your wound gets b i g g e r.
they make you question your worth, they make you question if you are everything they say you are, you are a f a i l u r e. you are n o t good enough. you mess e v e r y t h i n g up. you can't do a n y t h i n g right. "this world would be so much better without you." now you're convinced that all of it is true.
you are not the good things in you. you are not the awards you've achieved. you are not the compliments you've earned. you are not the kindness you show. you are not the positivity you spread. you are not the happiness you bring. you are none of these things.
they take away e v e r y ounce of your self-confidence, till you're left with absolutely n o t h i n g. now when you look in the mirror, all you see is a failure.
"you shouldn't let their words get to you" there is only so much a person can take before they break.
how am i supposed to do that? how am i supposed to ignore all of what is said?
so when a person comes around, to tell you otherwise. you c a n ' t accept it, because deep down inside, you know e x a c t l y what you are.
you aren't smart you can't even do one thing right. you aren't kind, you treat yourself terribly. you aren't positive, you think about how much better this world would be, without you.
yet you still carry on, like n o t h i n g is wrong with you, like you're a b s o l u t e l y fine. you laugh like you're absolutely fine. you talk like you're absolutely fine. you smile like you're absolutely fine. when in reality, you really are not.
you've convinced other people that you are, you've even convinced yourself.
hey, i'm okay, i'm smiling, i'm laughing, i'm talking to other people, i'm fine right?
no. you are falling apart.
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