xiii.
[her thoughts]
remember when I told you
his eyes shone like pieces of glass,
a reflection of the sky?
they still do and I like to stare at them.
because he doesn’t know why,
I could stare at his typical
eyes
and I asked him, “why not?’
and he smiled his dimpled smile
as he turned away to look
at his beautiful sister
who was the spitting image of him
in the way she talked and in the way
she breathed and in the way she looked
especially
and I was speechless
and I was unspoken
and the words hung in the air above us
that I couldn’t eat just enough to keep myself
healthy
while his sister
was trying to live just
to look healthy
and I just don’t understand
why not
why not
why can’t I?
I’m too fat
I’m too round
have you seen my thighs?
can you even see that gap?
I need you to know that
all I ever asked for
was a beautiful body
and I have worked so hard
why can’t I get it still?
why, why, why?
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falling || 5sos || au
Fanfiction"don't you see me now?" "I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you," - the 1975, fallingforyou