falling || 5sos || au

xi.

xi.

[her thoughts]

I saw him

while I was walking home

rain was washing down all the heartfelt sorrows

of teens my age

who never understood what the world

was trying to do

my heart was racing

my eyes were closing

my head was buzzing

my fingertips

felt fuzzy

I felt cold.

cold, cold, cold

I rubbed my arms

and I hadn’t realised

he was crying as he held

a little girl on his lap

she was so young

her hair shone bright

but her skin was pale

she held herself together

by close-knitted bones

and nothing more after that besides skin

she was just like me

but I was doing it voluntarily

I just wanted to be

skinny, skinny. Skinny

but as I rubbed my arms

I could feel my vision blurring

my arms were fuzzy

fuzzy

furry

why?

hadn’t I already shaved?

I quickly placed the money on his lap

as he was nuzzling his neck into her

I felt sorry

this was the only way I could meet him

he doesn’t even know

my name