Worth Protecting | Lapidot Human AU

10: Some Time To Think

Hey guys, just wanted to interrupt the story for a second to say I was really vibing to this song while I was reading and writing this story. I recommend, I think you can tell by now I'm giving Peridot my Set It Off addiction.

     I woke up to Lapis jumping onto me. "Lapis! What the fu-!" I'm cut off to a hand over my mouth. "The guys are gonna have a beach party at Steven's house, we have to go!" Lapis yells with stars in her eyes. I smile, she is so cute when it comes to her love for the water. "Weren't we just at the beach a couple days ago?" I ask sitting up and throwing a shirt on, smirking at Lapis' wondering gaze. "My eyes are up here Lazuli." I tease, earning a dark blush from the blue eyed princess on my lap. "Sorry, and yes we did but please!? It's called Beach City for a reason!" She whines, I smile giving in and we get up to get ready. 

     At Steven's house Pearl was talking with Amethyst about what had happened at the store. She had a pink blush on her cheeks while Amethyst was smirking. What did that clod say now? It doesn't really matter, clearly whatever it was worked. Ruby and Sapphire were on the porch with Garnet, making out of course while Garnet filmed it on her phone. Garnet likes to make jokes that if they got any closer they'd fuse together. I sat on the steps as Steven ran up to Lapis and hugged her. Lapis smiled brightly at him, but something seemed off about her to me. Her smile just seemed different, like she was hiding something. I could see it. I wanted to say something but what do I say to her? I can't imagine what she must be feeling right now.

Lapis' P.O.V
     I thought talking to Steven and everyone would make me feel better but I still can't shake the feeling of Jasper. She is coming for me and I know it, do I really wanna put Peridot in danger? And what about Steven and Amethyst, even Pearl. Do I really wanna risk all of their safety? That smirk Jasper gave me at the store, I know she is looking at me as if I'm some sort of unfinished business. Peridot has done everything for me and never questioned it. I tried to steal her car and threatened to shoot her. Yet she still saved my life and treated me like family. She is really amazing, and the greatest relationship I've ever had even though it's been so short. The way she looks at me with those beautiful emerald green eyes. I could feel my heart race and my face burn red just by her smiling at me. Dammit why is she so cute!? I couldn't help but think to myself as Peridot taps the spot next to her on the sand. I don't want Jasper to hurt her because of me. "Hey guys, I'm gonna take a walk for a bit. I need some time to think and enjoy the water." I say walking off before Steven or Peridot could respond.
     I followed the line of the beach, the waves hitting my feet as they crashed onto the shore. I've always loved the water, the feeling of the waves hitting my feet as they crash onto the shore, the way it glistens in the sun, I love everything about it. I look out at the line where the water meets the sky. Ever since what happened at the game store I can't look at Peridot without feeling guilt. I didn't even notice in the moment how much Jasper looked like she wanted to kill her, if not me. "Lapis are you okay?" I turn around to see the exact nerd taking over my thoughts looking up at me. "Oh! Um, Yeah I'm fine. Just wanted to take a walk and enjoy the ocean." I say trying to hide my obvious discomfort. "Lapis why are you lying to me? You know you can tell me what's bothering you." She says walking up to me. I want to believe that, but I know I can't. If I tell her who knows what will happen, maybe she would view me as a danger to her. She would see me as some threat to her safety. She wouldn't want me to stay. She would see how much baggage I come with and I'd lose her. "I'm fine Peri, really." I reassure her. I don't want to let her go, but is it selfish of me to make her stay?

Sorry for the short chapter! I'm so sorry for the hiatus! Writer's block is EVIL! I promise to try and write more I love you all so much! Thanks for reading my stories!! <3