Shawn Mendes Imagines [closed]

Because I Had You

sO it's been a while...

Shawn's Point Of View

The first time I saw her with a new guy after our breakup was at the café we went to when I had time off between tour dates and I'd come back to Canada to visit my family and, well, her. She sat in the booth with her back facing me and the new guy's face facing me. She didn't even see me when she walked in.

We broke up because I told her that I didn't want to continue disappointing her because I was never there for her. That we couldn't survive a long-distance relationship when we had everything we needed to keep it alive: love. I thought I knew what I wanted. But really? I wasn't even close to knowing what I wanted.

But judging by the laughter I'm seeing, she's better off with her new guy. I could tell that she was happy and besides she's with someone I can't be. Now he could always be by her side and not on the other side of the world.

I also met someone new. A couple of months ago, actually. I took her to all the places we went to, like her favourite (Indian, Chinese, Italian, Mexican pick one etc) restaurant and the movies to watch a new release. And she helped me forget Y/N but I could never love her no matter how long we spent together because I had Y/N.

I remember telling her that we would last for years together. Years and years and years. We were only fifteen at the time. And what about her sister? Y/N has a sister, a little older than her, who would ask about me all the time. We were neighbours for five years and then we moved when I was sixteen elsewhere, in the time we were neighbours I'd be around her house every day. After that, it was four times a week.

I smiled at the memory and probably looked like an utter fool doing so. So, I sipped my coffee.

It got me thinking: what we had, is it gone forever?

If so, then there's nothing left to lose. I had her. Now, she's with him and there's nothing I can do. I wish I had her.

Sighing, I told myself: It's time for me to find somebody new again and tell myself that's she's the one that can get me through.

What was I thinking? In the end she might help me forget like the other girl but I still couldn't love her. Because I had Y/N.

A/N: it's been two weeks hI. Reason for that is because I've been on holiday. However, now that I'm back and summer's gone I'll probably update more often. I have two requests which I've postponed until the end of the album imagines. But anyways, you'll be receiving a double update today so keep your eyes out for that.