Awkward (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 9

I was sitting in a booth across from Sarah at McDonalds. I didn't want to talk, but Sarah did. I was busy scarfing down my burger when she asked, "Do you think they'll tell anyone?"

I stopped chewing and tried to ask Huh? but it came out sounding more like, "Hmf?" because my mouth was full.

"Your parents. Do you think they'll tell anyone that you're gay?

I swallowed my food.

"I dunno. I don't think mom will, unless I tell her she can. She seemed like she actually cared. But dad-- I don't know. Maybe he wont tell anyone because he looks at me as a disgrace now. Maybe he wont want anyone to know. But... maybe not. He might tell everyone. I don't know anymore. I thought he loved me. I didn't think he would--- Oh God, Sarah," I sobbed.

"Oooh, I'm sorry Ember. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to-- I didn't realize, God I'm sorry." She got out of her seat and slid into the booth seat with me. She wrapped her arms around me as I slouched over the table in attempt to hide my tears from anyone who may have been in the restaraunt at the time. I was pretty sure people would be staring.

I cried for a few minutes before I though, You know, I gotta suck it up some time or another. I may be gay, but I'm not a baby. I sniffed my nose and sat up. Sarah was rubbing my back and I pulled away from her a little. She stopped, but kept her hand on my back.

"It's okay. I know you didn't mean anything. I, I need to talk about it. I need to suck it up. if I cry every time I think about it, where's that going to get me? No where."

"Ember, you don't have to think like that."

"I'm choosing to. I don't want to be a baby. I'm going to have to get over it some time or another. Dad told me that I'm not allowed to date anyone until I move out, and that I can pack my bags and leave the day I turn eighteen," I said flatly.

Sarah gasped, then said, "No! Ember no. Your mom won't allow that."

"I bet she won't get a choice. Dad can put up a good fight."

"You can live with me!!" she said excitedly. "I can go talk to my parents and they'll probably understand. You can move in soon then you can even date people!! Yes, it's a master plan!"

"Sarah, it's not going to happen," I said, a bit amused. I felt a little bad though, because she was trying to make me feel better and I ruined it.

"Hey, let's go hang out with Damien," Sarah said.

"Okay. Can we run by my house? I want to get my phone. In case mom wonders where I'm at or something."

"Okay."

And so we left McDonalds and went to my house. We got there and still no one was home. I walked up to the door and fished my key out of my pants pocket. I unlocked the door and ran up to my room, not wanting to keep Sarah waiting too long. I walked to the corner of my room where the phone was and picked it up. I held down the button to turn it on as I walked out of my room and back out of the house. As the screen lit up and my phone gained service, it started to vibrate like crazy, alerting me of all the voicemails and texts that I had missed.

After I got in Sarah's car, my phone was still going crazy so I just sat back and put the phone on top of my leg as I buckled up.

"Sorry 'bout that," Sarah said.

"You better be," I joked.

"Well nevermind then, I'm not," she said, then stuck her tongue out at me.

"Have you talked to Damien?" I asked.

"Yeah, when you were inside I called and made sure it was okay for us to come over. He said it was cool.."