Criminal Minds Imagines

What are you doing here? *JJ* || Gay Smut

(a/n: I write these things from a girl's point of view usually. This will not be different. It's still from a girl's point of view. Also, it's the first time I write lesbian smut so please NO HATE! And I am apologizing in advance if I get things wrong.)

Another hour and my shift is done, thank God. I don't know why I have a weird vibe today, maybe it was all the drunk guys hitting on me, maybe the fact that I am tired. I don't know what is it today, but I cannot wait to leave the bar.

"Two beers, please." A dark brunette smiles at me and I nod winking. "Coming right up." I smile taking two beers from the fridge and handing them to her. "Thank you." She smiles paying for them and I nod. I follow her with my eyes and I see she is sitting at a table for two. My jaw almost drops seeing the blonde girl she is with and a feeling of weird heat hits my heart.

*Flashback*

I am dancing at a party that takes place once every year and I see the most beautiful girl dancing in my group of friends. I've seen her around school, but I know she is into boys. I see her drunkly coming next to me. She smiles and the beautiful blonde hair moves from left to right as she dances and I keep smiling at her. She comes closer to me and looks me into my eyes and bites her lip. Am I reading this wrong?

She cups my face and crushes her lips onto mine. I feel my heart skipping a beat. I can't believe she just did that. Maybe it's because she is drunk.

"I've always wanted to do that" She says in my ear loud enough for me to hear over the loud music.

*End of flashback*

I gulp looking at them and feel a bitter taste in my mouth. She was my first love.

"Hey, Y/n, are you ok?" Josh asks me and I nod. "You look like you've seen a ghost." He smiles and I gulp. "I feel like that too." I smile trying to shake up the feeling in me right now.
I keep looking at JJ and that woman she is with. I am jealous of the way they laugh and I remember how I used to make her laugh. I remember those times we were skipping class and went to my place just so we could kiss. She never admitted she felt something more about me than best friends who occasionally kiss. She always talked to me about her boy crushes and I didn't care if it meant spending time with her, even though it hurt.

*Flashback*
"How do you do it?" She asks me as she gave me a ride home. "How do I do what?" I ask her confused.
"How did you know you like girls?" She asks and I smile shrugging. "I'm simply not attracted to guys. I've tried to have a relationship with a guy once but I couldn't even bring myself to kiss him. It didn't attract me." I explain and she sighs.
"But some girls like boys and girls too. There's nothing wrong with that either." I say and she furrows her brows.
"You're the only girl I feel attracted to. What's that mean?" She asks and I chuckle.
"You do realize I am not attracted to every girl either, right? Being gay doesn't mean I am attracted to every girl on this earth, it's like you would say a straight girl is into every guy she sees." I smile and she nods.
"Right. I'm sorry. I am still trying to figure out what's happening to me. I mean i know I am attracted to guys but I feel things when I am with you too, and I know it's not fair what I am doing, telling you about all my crushes, but I guess some part of me is still afraid of what I feel when I am with you." She smiles and I nod. I see little rain drops splashing the car and I know just how much she loves the rain.

"Stop the car." I smile and she looks at me confused. "I mean it, stop the car." I smile and she does just that parking it. I get out of the car and open the driver door. "It's raining." She says confused.

"Come on. I know just how much you love the rain." I say and she still doesn't want to come out. "We're gonna catch a cold." She smile but takes my hand climbing down her car.