Hello & Goodbye (ereri)

Chapter Sixteen

~Eren's POV~

My legs hadn't moved since I had been in Mikasa's bed. I could feel my hands shaking from the harsh conversation with Levi. All this time I thought we'd never fight at such extreme measures. For this night was supposed to be lively and exhilarating at a college party. I was clearly wrong; this night was nothing, but stressful and heartbreaking.

The ceiling light was dimmed down, which was relaxing for my eyes. I remained underneath the warming covers despite it being in the middle of summer. It's only July and I'm surprisingly dreading this vacation already.

My head was drawn towards the doorway when I noticed Mikasa walking in. She had no hint of worry on her face, only satisfaction knowing that I was safe and sound away from her brother. Sometimes it's a pain when Mikasa acts like a mom. But she's way better than the poor excuse of a mother that I have a home.

"Hey Eren, how're you feeling?" She said as she seated herself at the foot of the bed like I was some sick child.

"I'm fine," I pouted trying to avoid eye contact with her. Don't get me wrong, I definitely appreciate the amount of care she gives, but at times I just feel like a dog in a cage. I'm unable to do anything and when I try to escape, Mikasa tries her very best to get me back on a leash.

"Are you sure? Levi was really vivid with you. When did you two get so close anyways? Do you even genuinely like him?"

Pulling my knees close to my chest to feel a sense of comfort, I buried my face into my legs. "Why do you care so much about the relationship between me and him! He's not even your brother, he's your fucking cousin. He's a prick, he's a fag, and...and I just...he's just..."

I didn't even have the strength to finish what I was saying. It's still heart crushing knowing that Levi would be so selfish and make this night a living hell. It's disturbing since I still cannot remember any of it either.

Mikasa scooted closer to me. Her petite hand ruffled my hair in attempt to relax me, "What are you feeling? He's just what? Mean? Annoying? You can vent to me, I'll always help you. Levi has a tendency to care for just himself and leave others to the dust. I'm sorr—"

"Just stop saying his name!" My emotions took over. I liked him to an overwhelming extent and it's just so hard to believe that he'd even have the thought to drug me.

"Eren you don't have to yell."

"I have feelings for him, okay?!"

My head jolted back when I realized I'd just officially confessed. Without responding at first, Mikasa leaned forward and sharply placed her index finger in the center of my chest, "Really?" Her fingernail dug deeply into me and her face showed only frustration; which was the reaction I was expecting.

She let out a sigh before adding, "I know, it was obvious."

With my blood running cold, my eyes locked with her. Now that wasn't the answer I was expecting. It felt as if my tongue had swollen up and I couldn't even talk it I wanted to, "B-but wait...h-how? But l-like, what? Did he...? The fuck? How?!"

My eyebrows were skewed from my intense concern and my mouth hung open with disbelief. Every pore in my body seemed to leaking sweat uncontrollably.

"I just overheard some stuff, I eventually put two and two together. And it's kind of eye-catching when you see notice your best friend hanging out with your gay cousin more than necessary and prefers the comfort of him before your own. Plus, he kind of told me too," she stated in a monotone voice which was rather frightening.

"He told you?!" I shouted while having my fingers grip into the comforters of bed, "What do you mean?!"

"He didn't directly tell me, but it's the gist I got when I was talking with him before," she added before removing her finger from my chest.