Turn Around - An Adopted By O2L Story

Chapter 44

"You-you're joking right?" I stuttered, my voice cracking. 

"I'm sorry." Hayes said. "I have to go. Bye Zoe." Hayes said, hainging up.

I screamed out, breaking down into tears. My whole life is starting to fall apart. Eva is mad at me and won't talk to me, and now Hayes is gone too. I'm sort of glad no one is home right now because of how if they were home they would have heard me scream. Everyone else went out a few minutes ago, but I declined as I was on Omegle. I went on Twitter to try and get my mind off of what happened, but saw a lot of hate, and I found the source. Eva tweeted out something.

@realevadillon when you think you have a best friend but they betray you. Unfollowed. 

@realzoefranta thanks for the unfollow! love ya xx

I tweeted her that and then went onto Hayes's twitter to see if he was still following me. He was, so I decided to read through a few of his latest tweets. 

@HayesGrier when you know you are about to make the worst decision of your life but you go through with it anyways.

@HayesGrier ugh I'm so stupid. I hate myself. 

@HayesGrier just made the worst desision ever...

I went onto my Twitter page and clicked the tweet button.

@realzoefranta I'm broken, can you here me?

Yes, I quoted More Than This by One Direction, but it literally describes me so much right now. I sighed as I saw a new tweet. 

@HayesGrier missing you already baby

I tweeted something else out. Yay for indirects!

@realzoefranta nothing good can last forever

I closed out of Twitter and went onto Instagram on my computer so I could change my bio. I had it centered so it's just easier to do on the computer. I took out the parts about Hayes and Eva, then closing out the tab and closing the lid to my laptop. I plugged in my headphones into my phone and went onto my music list, shuffling it.

I'm so tired and stressed and now my depression is showing. No one knew about it, not even Eva. She suspected it though, but I never told her anything. I'm good at hiding it, hiding how much deep down inside I'm hurt. They never let me see my parents the night they died. I didn't even get to go to the funeral. I miss them so much.

I seriously think I have anxiety as well. It's weird, like one day I'll wake up and everything seems almost... different. I'll be completely out of it and just not feel like myself, and I'll feel way more depressed then usual. I literally feel so broken right now, like I've been chewed up and spit right back out. It's the worst feeling in the world. 

Why would my best friend blame me like that and call me all of these names and why would Hayes break up with me? I started crying at the thought of it. I pulled my earbuds out and opened the door to the bathroom, looking at myself. My eyes were bloodshot and I just looked so bad. I frowned, walking back down to my room and and I walked downstairs into the kitchen. 

They still weren't home. It was so quiet, and I really don't like it. It was a little scary actually. I grabbed my special ice cream that is mine in the freezer and a spoon, going back upstairs. I placed the ice cream on the top couch part and then grabbed the remote, climbing up there. I clicked the on button and then went onto Netflix, scrolling through the suggested. 

I had Oculous, Insidious 2, All Cheerleaders Die, Paranormal Activity, The Possession, Dead Silence, Scream, Devil, The Final, You're Next, The Hole, The Cabin in the Woods, Texas Chainsaw, The Human Centipide, and Halloween. Great, so all horror movies are reccomended. Whatever, I'll just watch All Cheerleaders Die. It can't be that scary can it?

Well I was sorta wrong, it wasn't really scary, just really creepy, like really freaking creepy. And the way it ended, I did jump and scream a little bit, I wasn't expecting that to happen. And there was a part two to it too apparently, considering it ended saying part one. If they don't have a part two, I will be mad. It was actually an okay movie. 

I exited out of that and looked at the other selections they offered me. I decided to go with Cabin in the Woods because what could be wrong with that? Am I right? It totally doesn't have a creepy ass title that could mean something is happening in the woods in a cabin that could haunt me for the rest of the night if it is a horror horror movie that is scary as hell. I clicked on the watch button and did just that. 

So watching that probably wasn't the best idea of mine. I literally have no clue how I'm going to sleep tonight. The weird thing about it was it didn't really scare me either. It's just the creepy zombie things that I see whenever I close my eyes. The movie was just creepy, not really scary. I just wished it wasn't nightmare creepy like it was. Like that wasn't cool bruh. I turned all the lights on in the room and went on Twitter. I saw five new tweets from Hayes. 

@HayesGrier knowing that I was the reason you're hurt.... man im such a dick

@HayesGrier i fucked up for nothing

@HayesGrier i regret everything i just did, fml

@HayesGrier guys im sorry but ill tell you when im ready. youve probably already guessed though.

@HayesGrier i just need to move on, forget. i dont want to, but its whats best. im sorry. so sorry.

I locked my phone and felt the tears coming again. I feel so weak and so helpless right now, I just don't know what to do. Weak. I am weak. I never liked being considered that, but I am. I'm just a weak girl that battles with depression and most likely anxiety. That's who I am. I couldn't stop the round of sobs that shook through my body, I don't know if I can do this anymore. I can't get anything that just happened a few hours ago out of my mind. I just can't! Eva, she is probably shading me on Twitter still and Hayes is probably faking all of those tweets to try and make me feel better. 

I'm just a depressed, anxietized, suicidal bitch who doesn't deserve life. I wonder if life would be better if I just ended it, just gave up on trying. I could be happy, not struggling like I am right now. I'm only thirteen, a thirteen year old shouldn't have to go through what I have to go through. I felt awful right now, I don't even know what to do. I just can't do this anymore! I probably would be happier dead, and it would take the burden of me off of everybody else's shoulders. I fell asleep tonight with these thoughts on my mind.