Salvation [Zayn Malik AU]

Chapter 24 - Stay with me

Chapter 24 – Stay with me

Listen to Stay with Me by Sam smith <3

I couldn’t do it anymore. I walked out of the room, refusing to look back, I was such an idiot, this was all my fault. I could never see my brother happy with his best friend anymore, I may not ever see my brother happy. I started running, I didn't know where, but I knew I had to run. I didn't care if no one followed me because in all honestly, I just killed one of their gang members and also one of their bestfriends. I just wanted everything to go back to normal. I hated it.

I ran for as long as my legs could carry me, I ended up standing on a cliff. I just sat there, looking over everything, thinking about everything. I brought my knees up to my chest and just cried. I cried for Adam, he saved me and died. It should have been me, he shouldn’t of put his life at risk, because in all honesty, I would of much rather it be me than him.

I felt around and realised my phone was still in my pocket. I didn't want to touch it, I didn't want to look at it, but when it lit up, and my eyes were glued to the screen.

I know its hard, but running away won’t solve anything, I’ve told Koby that I know where you are and that I was going to get you, so im coming to find you, just please know, that it wasn't your fault. Zayn x

That just made me cry more, I placed the phone down and stood up. I looked down off the cliff and then I realised. I could just end it all now. I could put a stop to my pain, I could make sure no one has to live with someone who killed their best friend. I could die right now and it would all end.

I was crying hard, nothing was working, I couldn’t stop. All my tears I’ve held back over the year came out, my eyes were waterfalls full of emotion. I glanced down and gulped.

I had to think about it. If I died, Koby wouldn’t have to live with the constant reminder of his sister killing his best friend. Zayn wouldn’t have such an annoying little bitch on his hand (me), Matt and Liam wouldn’t have to see my face and Matt wouldn’t have to worry about hurting me. Rory, she wouldn’t have to live with her murderer of a best friend.

What was I to do?

If I go back, everyone will hate me, so I might aswell jump.

I took a step towards the edge of the cliff and I looked down.

“Is this how you are going to solve all your problems?” A voice from behind me said, I jumped slightly, I took a step closer to the edge. I knew who the voice belonged too, I didn't want to believe that he had saved me for the hundredth time. But he had.

“I know you are scared, but trust me April, this isn’t the right way to do it, this isn’t the right way to solve all your problems. Please just step away from the cliff and come talk to me. I’ll listen, you can cry all night if you have to, I won’t leave your side April. Come one, I know you think everyone will hate you, I know you think it is your fault, but it isn’t. Please, just take my hand” The voice came closer with almost every word spoken. His hand touched mine, I could feel him pleading for me to take his hand.

“Please April”

His hand didn't move from that spot. I could jump and it would all be over. I was panicking and crying to the point where I didn't know if I would survive this. I felt as if the guilt was eating me alive. I needed to do it, I needed to jump.

With all my power and might, I closed my eyes and took a breath.

I felt myself take hold of his hand.

He pulled me away from the edge of the cliff. I didn't want to look at him, he knew that. But he hugged me anyway, although I didn't hug back, I still cried into his chest. Slowly, my arms wrapped around his neck as I cried. I was finally hugging him.

“Let it all out princess, im right here”

And he was, he was there all along, he was there while I was crying, he didn't leave me until I was stable enough to walk. When it came to that time, he picked me up and placed me in the passenger seat of his car. I was too unstable to do anything. He put my seat belt on and everything. He walked around so he could sit in the driver’s seat, he started driving and held my hand throughout the whole drive.

The rest of the night, he looked after me, he covered the Koby situation for me, Koby just kissed my forehead and said some things to me.

“You are the best sister in the world, and I love you so much, it wasn't your fault okay” Were some of the things he said to me. Zayn also bathed me, I know it sounds weird, but yeah, he did it. He dressed me and washed me and made sure I was okay. I don't know how he was handling everything so well but he was.

He was lying me down in bed, he tucked me in and kissed my forehead, it was then I spoke, my voice croaky and my throat in pain.

“Can you stay with me please?”

“Of course I will” He said. He took his shirt off and got under the covers, wrapping his arm protectively around my waist. I could say I felt safe. If it was another day, maybe I would of felt something, but all my emotions were I my eyes at the moment, and no matter how many times someone told me that it wasn't my fault, it would always be my fault.

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I woke up sweating and shaking. My dream, it was just repeats of last night over and over again in my head. When I shot up, I must of woken Zayn up because he sat up with me.

“What happened? Are you okay? Do you need anything?” I shook my head. He pulled me  into his chest and let me sleep, resting on him. He was warm, his body moulded into mine quickly. It was then that I knew everything would be alright. There would be bad days still, but everything was going to get better. And it was all because of this one boy named Zayn Malik.

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