On the eage of madness

Standing on the rugged cliff

The page was totally weird I don't think that the word "weird " could describe well that background , the images and the letters its seems like poems written by some skilled poet each word I read make me feel tense and cold .there are words talking about guardians and guardians angels and also falling angels.........,it was really amazing those drawings of what it seems or what they addressed to be the guardian and this magical creature with his big and white wings this holy protector the peace maker I was so fascinated and kept wondering do this really exist while I was wondering something pumped like a msg on the left side of the screen " do you want to meet your guardian angel in person ? " seriously I was horrified how did they know what I was thinking to ask that question ? I wanted to close and stop messing with my head but in sudden move another message came " don't be scared we're in the same side If you're willing to be with us " my head was about to explode I kept repeating the words "same side ?! ", "with us!? " who the fuck are you ? And that moment I should have the decision to shut down what seems madness and nonsense however I didn't..., something inside of me pushing me to know more , to explore and to enter this land of delusion and death yes death after like twenty minutes there are something like text showed up on screen that titled with if you willing to be with us there are conditions and rules you must follow to achieve what no one has achieved to be guided to the path of the legendary people and creatures you are lucky to be here because we offer you things no one in this entire earth could grantee and we know what you looking for that's why we chose you to be one of us cause we aiming to get what you love to have "power " , "control " there i was stunned on my sit , surprised no not really but something more then just surprised I feel like the blood running wild in my veins I felt all flashed with fever and another text appear if you decided there's this chant you need to repeat it for seven day and seven nights and morning's say it and you're full of confidence full of power and anger.... ( the words are harmful I can't write it for the safety of you ).
I don't know how my hands took a pen and I started writing those words , you might be thinking what have you done to yourself why you did that. I know the thing that you don't know that I'm in my parents eyes I'm a loser and a big failure yes that's true I wanted power and I wanted control. i wanted to prove myself to show people that I'm capable of doing things not just a spoiled lad I wanted for sure to make my parents proud of me whenever our neighbors or family talk about their kids I really  wanted to make them proud and this of course has a cost that I paid it with blood and sweat .

So acquiring power for me is a necessity that I thought to have it by all the means that I could get  so this was like a  genie granted my wish to obtain control over my life and get what I wanted from the beginning . I was like what's the big deal to say those few words for couple days as mentioned on this website. Probably millions of peoples around the world trying to make their lifes looks better but this chance was far beyond them and I got it here sitting my room with just a click on my mouse . I was just thinking this my chance I need to grab it and make a difference that my parents wanted to see in me for so long and stop being frail once in my life I need this so that was the beginning of taking that decision I was blinded that's for sure , i won't deny it . But you must know when people wanting from you to excel to be that bright star that bright their life this is the cost ,you need to push the limits and of course you'll go beyond your capacity and beyond the normality that's what really happened I just went beyond normal.
To be continued