On the eage of madness

The open door

In the dead of the night I was there in my room sitting on my computer trying to finish my work reports . The room was lit by my screen light . I felt so pissed off because of this stupid ads that kept pumping on my screen so I decided to download that fucking ad block and there were a strange pictures on the left side of LP screen and out of curiosity I clicked on one of them . There was a green gothic letters addressing everyone enter this link the whole room turned to be green because of this letters I read it loud enough and somehow there's a creepy feeling added to scene so decide to close that link and be back to work it's almost 3 am and i felt tired each word I type on my keyboard seems a struggle as swing on my set to easy the pain in my shoulders and in my neck . The Frustration took me to shut down the computer and I headed to my bed i couldn't stand the pain of sitting the whole night on that uncomfortable chair so I lay flat on my back enjoying how comfy it is that position I stayed like that like for couple minutes my eyes circling the darkness the only source of light was the beam that coming from my phone while he's in charging phase so I was grateful .I flipped myself on my right side and I tried to close myself I was too tired to sleep I don't know what they call that condition in psychology I think its insomnia . Since I was kid I was gifted by overthinking I know should I call it a bless or it's just a curse that I need to deal with it until now . I flipped back to my left side and I remember that I didn't Call mom I was too distracted by work and finishing the documents I thought to call her at this moment but I know the time difference and it should would be early morning in my country and she has the habit to wake up late . she used to my absence and forgetting to call her since I decided to study abroad in Turkey it's a lovely country after all so I neglected the idea of calling her and I kept Tossing and turning on my bed like for half an hour as i always my prayers kept me company and each time I say the words I fall a sleep like a baby and the peace fell upon my soul as I close my eyes the a new black layer covered my sight and entered the land of dreams I don't know where I am strange place its seems like cave from the smell of it the smell of wet sand to make it more familiar, do you know the smell of the ground after a rainy day thats what I'm talking about It .i couldn't see anything because the darkness all over the place I took step and I stumble on seems like a rock and my head hit the wall hot water covered my face I knew it's my blood I tried to stand up but I fell back to the ground but this time on my back as I lay there I felt drips of water falling on my shoulder and voices I couldn't pin down so closed to mumbles I tried to open my eyes , it took me ages to gather myself to open them and I saw the same green light from that link coming from a hole in the top of me and I recognized the place I'm in well ..I tried to hold on some stones on the side of the wall , with the feeling of it the stones looked so sharp and rugged . I stood on my foot and dragging my other one in lazy way I stood on my feet and I held my head high trying to hear the chant its seems like the same words from that website but as I'm trying to concentrate on that voice an earthquake my body swings back and forth suddenly I woke up and the Adhan was on from the closet mosque to my apartment calling the people to do the first prayer of day I was soaked in sweat and I'm shaking why I'm so scared my heart beating fast? , what was that chant and voices ? What's the relation between that ad and my dream .I decided to pray and read Quran because I know the words of god is like lullaby to human soul and cleansing the heart but there's this deep urge of knowing things the human enemy "the curiosity " and out of it I wanted to dig down on that website to know the meaning of the chant that I heard in my dream and the most important thing is why that happened it should be just a random thing there's nothing harmful about it. I opened the computer and I went to the historic I started entering each link i entered till i found it ,that same green gothic letters I stared , confused and the uneasiness filled my heart . In the middle of the page there were symbols pyramids ,circles and bunch of stars and that eye was like soul ripper it shape made me more confused like a true human eye but it's not . At the bottom was a button written on it welcome I clicked what's the big deal if I entered it's just a click nothing harmful about it that's what I thought and as i said before curiosity is the human enemy and then a new page opened or should I say I opened a door to a new world different from the one that we know , I world where you can be master or slave , a pawn or knight that depends on who you are or you can be naught . To be continued....