On the eage of madness

Between the nothing and nothingness

I was there on the ground trying to hold myself together honestly I gave up I don't have the power to face more of this shit i felt exhausted unable to move and deep down of me i wanted that jackal head to come and finish me . I know that you might be thinking hey why you just gave up now just stand up and run save yourself before they notice your presence...however, the things that you don't know that I'm beyond being saved because as I told you this is not just a simple affair that you want it over or a job you want to quit it just because you've felt tired and you want a rest ,the thing is I just knocked on the hell's door , who do you think will open the door for me? ....., who do you think will be there waiting ? Just take your time and think of it , while I was there on the cold dirty ground I felt again those pale hands all over me , it has a creepy feeling once it touch my skin i shivered as I tried to look up toward the source of this hands a vortex swept the scene but I know to whom it belongs to , that creature who called himself my guardian , or should I called him my worst nightmare, that name probably suits him the most and trust me I'm not exaggerating on telling you those stuff , I'm in middle of a room the light is so dim I was barely able to see what's around me but I was sure that I wasn't all alone a heavy hissing coming from one of the chamber corners I thought at first mayhaps i'm in a room filled with snakes and of course I'm wrong and I wish It was snakes , a sudden blust of light lit the room I was horrified what the hell....yes it's a hell bunch of the most horrific creatures I've ever ever had seen in my life not even in some sfy movies this not a faceoff show this is reality some of those creatures were stuck on the roof like there's no gravity and they fucked up all the laws of Newton's, twisted shapes you don't know how to imagine a body without joints ? yes you don't because this isn't part of normal world and I assure you they do exist in every place and every corner in your house in your bathroom in every shity place you could think off or imagine off right now , I felt the air is heavy the smell is beyond being supportable I tried to cover my nose with my elbow , a soft laughs coming toward me I took step back because I didn't want some of those horrific corps to touch me however the voice and his word were intense " stop where you are if you want to be alive kid " without hesitation without blink of an eye a froze in my place and i think i peed in my trousers " you're here because you summoned us , the things you've seen now and then where just a hint of our world and trust me if someone else has ever witnessed that he would be long time sleeping with the dead " I felt the sweat racing toward my back on my brow mixed with hot tears I wanted talk but the words betrayed me once again he continued his speech " I know what you're thinking now " he paused for moment before I broke the silence with a trembling voice ,weak and of course a lack of confidence was obvious "your world ? , summon you? Our ? Who are you people...?" I was surprised how could I managed to speak those words and I don't fucking know a thing about it but the reply was furious he suddenly was standing right front of me . This time I need to stop talking hey you this is a true a story if you don't have the guts to continue it's okay I understand cause this is not made for fun save yourself while you can, this creature that standing in front me lives in your dreams and thrives on your pain and your sorrow his eyes red as the blood running through your veins shine dread and fears don't try to creat him in your mind because he's already there... hey stop now ... don't .....trust me .....and I think you have decided to continue till the last words man , buddy congrats you have the balls to finish what I didn't want to finish long time ago . He's here in front of me that eyes , which I couldn't look right in it that feeling , that the life is sucked out of you I tried to drift my looking to somewhere else but I couldn't his skin almost grey , his legs couple of bones his feet I don't know if I  have the right to call it a foot it's a heel with odd shape not to mention his nose just a couple of wholes to make it more clear in your head it's like hand made wholes , something was flipping in his back ah a small wings truly I was fucking shocked how the hell could that small things could carry him up this is insane all the rules of normal world are fucked up it was all nonsense . now he extended a hand toward me to grab my shoulder the smell so awful I felt his neil's digging in my arm and voice came once his hand landed on my shoulder and that voice was mine " look I'm not going to say a word to anybody of what I saw and you can know that right? " his eyes where looking into different angles suddenly looked into my eyes damn that feeling is weird and he opened his mouth and his mouth is the big deal it splits his face into two full of sharp teeth and I thought in that moment it's a Velociraptor mixed with shark teeth and he spoke full of seriousness " you made a contract " he seized me and I tried hard to swallow my saliva and I replied in hurry that I wasn't thinking of his reaction "what the fuck are you talking about ?what a A contract ? This nonsense  !!!" He took a moment like he's trying to absorb his anger
"by the words that you said you broke the seal between the other dimensions and you freed things from their a life long prison, you might be thinking how's that happened ? we made that rituals because we're not allowed to free our kind, we're the doomed we'll live for eternity in dark and thieves on the shadows only when one of you humans say words could free our long time jailed soldiers as we mentioned for this and for what you did we offer you to be one of us you must know that we don't offer such a thing to humans but what you've done made us forgive your interference in our space " I was dazed the talk seems unbelievable and the smell is unsupportable I was barely standing and I felt like I have a jelly feet he continued " actually we don't offer this because you already here to serve let me explain to you that you made the deal no turning back now your duty is to serve our lord" the horror strikes beats me right in the heart the only thing that came to my mind was what I've done "your lord do you mean the one and only god that we have " he started to laugh hysterically like some maniac actually he really is what I'm thinking was what've said seems nonsense to him like a joke and I am bad jokes teller I was standing there lost in my heels the laugh started to fade slowly and he started to speak an uncomprhensibe language not made for my world and he put something on his face I don't know what is it but it seems like a mask no actually its a helmet with a weird looking eyes when he stopped talking something was standing behind me and touch my neck like he's trying to strangle me that thing whispered in my ear " I can take your life in blink of an eye but that will make my lovely lord sad " I was panicking yes I almost faint in my place in shock and unwillingly I said that I'll do anything they want me to do just take me back to the real world. I know what you're thinking that I'm weak and frail ... you can't judge people just from what you're reading , now that experience is craved in the hearts of the people who wanted to interfere in worlds are not meant to be seen by the humans eyes and of course the price must be paid by sweat and blood I was too greedy like a lot of people we wanted to have money , power which lead to control our lives and the others lives too however we're blinded by that too much greediness we don't know that to have something you must give something back this is the deal to take you must give that's what exactly happened. The voice still rings in my ears " that will make my lovely lord sad " all that I thought of that moment who's their lord that the most horrific creature are scared to make him sad to pause and think of that words I should and you should conclude that their lord is double maybe triple horrific then his creatures that was made to serve him .