Back and Forth | A Mike Wheeler Fanfiction

I Can't Fall In Love Without You

Y/N POV

The weekend seemed to drag on forever. It was suddenly Sunday night, and I had no idea what I was going to do tomorrow morning. What was I going to say to Mike? Dustin? El? 

I sat watching TV, trying to distract myself. I know that I have to talk to El. I have to tell her that I'm sorry and that I didn't mean to hurt her. Actually, now that I think about it, she might not even come to school on tomorrow. Depending on how heartbroken she is. 

I close my eyes, and the last image that was on the screen glows under my eyelids. What was I going to say to Dustin? I would have to tell him that the kiss didn't mean anything. I didn't even want to kiss Mike! 

What was I going to say to Mike? I shouldn't even say anything at all. He should be the one apologizing to me. Yup. That's right. I am not apologizing. 

Before I know it, it's 10:00, and my mom is ushering me upstairs. 

"Come on, Y/n. It's a school night, and you have to be well rested for your classes tomorrow." My mom pushes me up the stairs and into my room. My mom has some crazy obsession about getting straight A's. I never really understood why, but I don't want to upset her, so I get good grades. 

"I know, mom. I have to brush my teeth. I'll be asleep in 15 minutes. You don't have to worry." She smiles and gives me a kiss on the forehead. 

"Well, okay. Did you say goodnight to your father?" She asks me, one eyebrow raised. 

"Goodnight, dad!" I call down the stairs. 

"Goodnight, princess!" My dad calls back up to me. I smile and walk into the bathroom. After brushing my teeth, I go into my room and close the door. It's going to be a long night.

--The Next Morning--

As I sit up in my bed, I check my alarm clock on my nightstand. 8:00. Shit. I forgot to set my alarm last night. School starts at 8:20. I was going to be late. 

I jumped out of bed and started running around my room, pulling on closes, throwing my hair up in a ponytail to hide the tangles, and throwing on some shoes. I grabbed my stuff and ran downstairs. 

"Here's you're breakfast, sweetie!" My mom called from the kitchen. 

"Sorry, mom! I can't! I'm gonna be late!" I grabbed my coat and ran out the door. Running into the garage to grab my helmet and bike, I tripped on a rock and fell. Ow. 

I check my legs to make sure there aren't any cuts, and there aren't any. Although the jeans that I threw on now have a pretty big hole in them. I barely have time to think about the hole as I get on my bike and start speeding to the school. 

--Time Skip to Walking Into Mr. Clarke's Class--

I walk through the hallway, hoping that the lesson hasn't started yet. I wrap my hand around the doorknob and push. The door swings open to reveal the class and Mr. Clarke staring at me as I make my way to the desks. 

Oh shit. 

I look around the room and notice that there are three free seats. One next to Mike, one next to Dustin, and one next to the rest of the party, including El. I take a deep breath and choose the seat that's next to the rest of the party. When I sit down, I look over at Mike. He looks at me pleadingly, and I know that I'll have to forgive him eventually.

I risk taking a glance over at Dustin, and I can see that there are red marks around his eyes, as if he's been crying all morning. I gasp and look down. I start to pretend that I'm studying my hands, when really I'm trying not to cry. I never meant to hurt Dustin. 

The class went quickly, and before I knew what to do, everyone was standing up and walking to the next class. Mike and the rest of the party are already out the door, and Dustin is the only one left, so I turn to him. 

"Dustin, I need to talk to you." He looks up at me and I can see that he's trying not to cry. I gulp and walk around the other desks towards him. "You wanna skip our next class so we can talk?" I propose. He nods, and I follow him out of the school and onto the field. 

We sit in the shadow of the trees so that teachers won't see us if they look through the windows. I sit next to Dustin, but he acts like he could care less. 

"Dustin, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I didn't even know that Mi-" Before I could finish, Dustin had cut me off. 

"I know, Y/n." He doesn't look at me, so I feel the need to say something. 

"What?" I chew on my bottom lip, waiting for his reply. 

"I know that you didn't know it was coming. And I also know that Mike never meant to hurt me, so I'm not really mad at him. I'm just miserable because I know that if you were given the choice, you would pick him over me." Dustin gulps and takes a shuddering breath and I know that he's crying. 

"Dustin, that's not-" 

"Yes it is, Y/n! You would pick him! You're always going to pick him! No matter how many times he hurts you, or how many times he forgets about you or leaves you behind, you're always going to pick him! Because you love him!" Dustin is now standing up and yelling. 

"Dustin, I love all of you guys!" I stand up and step closer to him. 

"No, Y/n. It's not the same. Will, Lucas, Max, and even El know it, too. They know that you are in love with him. It's obvious enough. You look at him like he's a god, or something. Whenever you're talking to him, it's like nothing else can get you're attention. Trust me, you're in love with him. I know that you aren't going to pick me, and that's okay, but I think you should tell him how you feel. You know, before he tries to make up with Eleven." I almost start to cry right there and then, but somehow, I hold it back. Dustin sits back down, and so do I. 

"I thought you understood." I say quietly. 

"Understood what?" Dustin seems confused, so I decide to tell him the truth. 

"I already told Mike that I like him. He didn't want me. He wanted El. So, now that he's kissed me, I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do. I'm ashamed of myself for liking him, but I can't shake off those feelings right away, you know? I have to get used to this new thing. I have to get used to El and him. Only now that he kissed me, and him and El aren't speaking, I think he might have feelings for me. I think seeing me with you sparked something in him that he didn't know was there. By the time he realized what he was feeling, it was too late. I was with you, and he was with El." This time, I let the tears fall, and Dustin wraps his arm around me, trying to comfort me. 

I sob into his shoulder, and he just sits there, comforting me. It's moments like these that make me feel grateful for the friends that I have. 

A/N

Awwww, I love Dustin so muchhhhhh. I feel bad for him, but it had to happen sometime. Better sooner than later. Okay, sorry this was short, but I'm really tired, and I wanted to publish another chapter for you guys! Love you all and thank you for the reads!