Rina POV
Dear Joshua Hong ♡,
Bruh. You're right, I have a million things I want to ask you, so I'm writing this to you now even though I know you're probably never gonna read it.
The number one question I have is why. Why did you leave? Why did you leave me behind? Why didn't I ever hear from you about this? Why leave without any warning or notice? You say that you can't tell me right now, so fine, I'll stop asking. But then again, why can't you tell me why?? Every time I start thinking about it, I get more confused, worried, hurt, and angry. You knew what you did would cause so much pain for both of us yet you still went and did it. I really can't figure out what kind of reason would be good enough to cause all of this. South Korea, of all places. You said I have every right to hate you for this and sometimes that's really tempting, but I can't bring myself to because you mean too much to me. Pathetic, am I right?
You asked me to trust you, but I've never felt more torn. Part of me wants to trust you in a heartbeat, trust in the sweet and caring guy who took me stargazing, and promised to love me and support my dreams no matter what happens. The other part realized that this was the same guy who promised all of that and then left without a word the next day. Who am I supposed to trust, Joshua? Who is the real Joshua Hong? Who will stay by my side? Who will stay by yours?
Joshua, I love you a lot too and I really, really don't want to doubt you. You were my classmate, close friend, fellow musician, and then my boyfriend. Yes, you've hurt me and I should resent you, but I just find myself missing you more and more every day. I'm always wondering about how you're doing, if you're gonna call, if I can see you again soon and when that will be. I pray that wherever you are that you're smiling, eating well, and doing whatever you chose to do with no regrets. Even if you're not right beside me, I know I won't stop loving you no matter how long we're apart, so this better not be "goodbye", stupid :P Come home soon; you know where to find me.
Loving you always,
Your idiot, Rina Song ♡
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A/N Decided to do a quick chapter where Rina responds to Josh before I keep going with the story :)
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Heartstrings || Joshua Hong
FanfictionThe boy with the guitar looked sweet and pure, a complete gentleman to anyone at first glance. "Psh, gentleman my ass," said the girl, packing away her violin.
