The Mistakes I've Made

Chapter 5

        With my bag on my shoulder I walk through the hall to my first hour class, so that I can drop of my notebook. Walking into the room someone runs straight into me. It was her. She looked up at me and glared, and suddenly I wanted to erase my answer and put her. The teacher smiled as he looked up at us. "Joseph, meet Makayla." He says with a smile. So that's her name. After we both mumble an apology she passes me and I hand the teacher my notebook. As I turn to leave he stops me. Turning around I must have looked as I felt because he quickly assured me I wasn't in trouble. "I just need to make sure everyone actually did this, and took this seriously." Opening my notebook he read my answer. He sat their and stared at it, even though I knew he has already read it. Three times. Finally he looks up at me and then turn the page, to read my question. I was hoping I wouldn't have to be here for this part. After reading it he completely froze. He obviously wasn't expecting it. Confused? Well that's ok. I'll tell you what I asked. I looked down at the page and at the top in small handwriting is my question. 'Your thoughts kill you, don't they?' And that's it. Feeling a little uncomfortable, I realize he has some of the other notebooks open on his desk. Reading them, I realize i was right. The other kids wrote things like the dark, and spiders, and snakes. But, the very last one, had the entire page filled. Reading the name I realize it's hers, and she's afraid of being alone. Turning on my heal I walk out. He doesn't stop me this time. Instead, he just stares after me.

I've made up my mind. I know, it's stupid, but I'm gonna try. Walking towards the door I pull out my phone and tell my mom I'm walking. She reads it but doesn't answer. Damn! Its ok. I know she won't be mad. I'll tell her. Walking out the door, I can't find the girl anywhere. Confused again? Well, I'm breaking my main rule today. I'm gonna try and be friends with a red. I know I know, it's not a bad thing, especially seems how I'm red. But like I said, I don't wanna get attached to someone just to lose them. So I'm just gonna try and be friends with her. Key word: try. Walking around I realize she doesn't ride a bus. Does she get picked up? Sadne- I mean relief fills my mind. And that's when I spotted her, walking down the same side walk, I had this morning. Shouldering my bag I quickly try and catch up to her. In only a minute, I'm standing next to her, although she hasn't noticed. Ok. Cool. Now talk. My mind tells me. Wait, what? Talk!? What am I supposed to say? I didn't think this through! Well, shit. "What are you doing?" My eyes shot up to hers immediately. Ok. She noticed me. What do I say? I can't say I was following her. That's creepy. And I cant just not say anything. Ok. So be honest. "I'm going home." I reply simply. Ok. Honest. Kinda. She seemed confused by this though. She scrunches up her face, eyebrows together, lips in a small pout. I wonder if she even noticed she's doing it. "Okay... why are you so close?" Shit. What do I say now? Calm down. Just reply. "Well, I uh, thought maybe since we were walking in the same direction we could walk together?" I mumbled. I'm pretty sure she understood me though. Taking her eyes off mine she looks forward and continues to walk. Well, it's not a no. After we walk in silence for about five minutes she finally breaks the silence. "I don't understand you." She says frustrated. "What do you mean?" I ask in reply. We didn't even know each other. "Your so quiet, unlike every one else. And you always seem so distant. Scared. But it seems like you hate me. Yet your here, walking next to me. Why?" She explains quietly. I was stunned, and confused. A minute passes and she looks up to me waiting for an answer. "Well for starters, I don't hate you. I just.... I'm not really a people person. And I am scared and distant, but I wanna try this year. To make a friend I mean. And your the only one who actually interests me." I explain. She scrunches up her face again confused. "Why?" She asked again. I looked away. Why did I pick her? Out of everyone else, I choose her. Why? Did I feel bad or something? I don't know. Jesus, now I'm confused. "Why are you so confused about it?" I finally ask. I'm trying. She immediately avoided my gaze her right hand going to her arm rubbing just above the bracelets. "Shut up." She barks out. Great. I think to myself. She has a temper. Reaching my house, I tell her bye and head towards the door. As I reach for the knob a thought soars through my mind and before I know it I'm standing in front of Makayla again, grabbing a piece of paper and a pen. Writing down my number I talk. "Look I know we don't really know each other, but like I said I'm trying to make a friend this year. So here," I say handing her my number. "Text or call or whatever." Before she can even reply, I'm walking back to the door, yelling "See you tomorrow!" Over my shoulder as she stands there holding the paper, shocked. Then Ta-Da!!! I have a friend. My, red in black friend. And with that, I walked inside.

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Authors note:

   Hey! Ok so the second to last line, "My, red in black friend," confused my friends. This is referring to 1, her outline color. And 2, the way she dresses (manly wearing black.) Just thought I would clarify. 

Anyways.......I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I feel so accomplished. 5 chapters (that I had already wrote) in one night (copy and pasted)! I'll update tomorrow! Stay alive friends |-\

~Sam